school...

so today, i am sitting here in the library next to shelley and pabings. i jsut found out that hella ppl have blogspots and so now i am gonna do them and enjoy myself like the loser that i am.

last night i had dance practice till 830 at the marriot. that was cool cus we finally finished but when i got home i was so tired that i didnt even check facebook. which is my link of communication with everyone cus i STILL dont have my fone which i hope to get this weekend. i wanna try and do my precacl proj. so ill post more tonight cus this is all i really need to do. peace

countdown

48 days till the transition mass for me =] i love taking days off of school for swimming

march 19-21 i will b on an official visit to UOP

no meat on fridays or tomro.

sadies on friday. that i didnt kno i was going until yesterday. well kidna this morning actually.
ideas consist of :
sailor moon and tuxedo mask
mr and mrs pacman
lilo and stitch
kermit the frog and ms piggy

those are my fav so far. and i thought of cosmo and wanda but everyone seems to think its a bad idea. and chris brown and rihanna. my mom came up with that one. i needa get this debate shit done so i can go to sleep.

i am stopping now.

confused child

so basically i am a tad bit confused on everything. i am tryin to change my email to this account and it totally froze everything i had on here. well anyways i hav my fred debate tomro and i havnt typed out any of my notes yet. part of me is hoping that we dont get to my prompt tomro so i can get soem extra time to work on it. if yenno what i mean. well yeah. i basically am not prepared and i dont have the self motivation to do any of this.

im 18! well i was as of last week. my bday went well. marques and i went to go watch confessions of a shopaholic. so funny. its a really good movie. and then we went to church and went out to shushi with my fambam. that was good.

my party was crazy. first the lights kept going out right before the party and then a minute before 6 they turned back on and stayed on. that was crazy i tried so hard to stay calm. a bunch of ppl couldtn come cus they were sick or their paretns wouldnt let them outta tha hosue. that kinda made me mad and upset and sad. i mean shit i coulda had a way bigger turn out and stuff. but iwas still fun and i had a good time with the poeple who game. i didnt hav an amazing time but i did hav fun and it was memorable. it was lik even unrealistic at times. lik i sat back and said to myself "this cant really be happening right now"

well anyways. tomro is ash wednesday and we hav liturgy dress. and our debate so i am gonna be dressed up for that.

i had my first day of swimming today. as of 3 weeks i hav not swam because of sickeness nd retreat and what not. so yeah it was my first day back and my first day of high school practice. that was a bit interesting. nothing too amazing and it wasnt too horrible either. it was a mediocre practice. i am going to wait and see hwo the rest of the week unfolds.

i hav elaine's dance practice today. i am not going to lie the vids that we hav of us dancing is jsut horrible and makes me wanna cry. cus its gonna jsut look so bad wen we do the whole thing. ughh oh well. i want to sleep but i need to type out this stuff. for my gropu. well kdian. no one else is doing anything. so i am trusting in god that we can figure this thing out.

sorry that i dont hav anything interesting to talk about. and i am probably the only one who checks my profile. so its lik i talk to myself. but i am not informed lik other bloggers. who talk about different subjects and wat not. i mean what else can i say. i am not brilliant and dont hav strong opinions about things that can jsut be easily written on a blog. maybe i can try one day. itll probably be about high school swimming and how much we lost this year. and hwo much i feel cheated about everything. but thats another time. i want to sleep and i should get this debate stuff done now so i dont hav to do it later. peace!

victoria ann

sick

so basically i am sick and its no good because my birthday is on saturday and my party is on sunday. and today i jsut was not feeling good. i had a fever during 6th period. but yeah basically i am pumped. andi hav jsut been out and about.

i went on retreat for three days and then i came back not feeling lik i wanted to do anything. so i didnt so its jsut been hard to catch up on school work.
it was a fun experience tho, retreat was.

and today i got really sick and i hav a fever and i jsut feel lik crap really. bad. anyways yea.
i turn 18 in 2 days adn today is my 17 month anniversary.

and i hav a pretty busy weekend. and im tired. and my partners jsut wont do anything which really pisses me off. i need to edit and do some homework this weekend. while resting a lot. and stuff like that.

tomro i needa clean the house so that they can film everyin on sunday morning. and then in the afternoon im going to get my nails done with my mom. i am going to relax and enjoy myself. and then i am going a the valentine's session for loopkicks. marques and deangelo want me to try tricking but now since im sick it might not b able to. jsut with my body and everything it might not be a very good idea. and then yea not gonna stay too long cus i want some sleep. and then on saturday its my 18th bday!! yess fun stuff. i hav no idea what we are really doing its marques's planning for that day. and then the next day is my party. and i hav to wake up early and get curlers in my hair. and i somehow need to do this all this weekend. and do hw. and rest. crazyyyyy.

ok my donski. and no i will not hav supreme soul at my party like alyssa sorry

The Stupid Things

currently listeingin to:

passion remake of "The Stupid Things" by Robin Thicke

today is the 2nd of February in the year of two thousand nine. wow.

10 more days is my one year and 5 month anniversary with the one and only marques mallare

12 days is my 18th birthday!

13 days is my cotillion!!! yayy!!

so much stress from that...

and according to the announcements today its something lik 65 days left of school for me. i think something lik that. mark your calanders, may 23 is victoria pichay's graduation. im a grown ass woman in 12 days ( well legally i am haha) and i own my life. i am me and i take responsibility for my actions. but that also means that i am in control of my life and what i do. no one can push me around anymore. i am in control of me and who i am and what i want to be and what i want to do in life. this is my life. my wonderful experience through whatever god has given me.

in a month i will know where i will b heading to next year. what a big step. COLLEGE.

who knew that it would fly by so fast. everyone tells you that it would fly by but its so unreal until it happens. Davis here i come!! tony dito jsut came back from his trip and i think he is just as head over heels as i am. there is nothing else like finding the school taht calls you. i am gettin scared tho, i mean what if it all changes but i dont think it should. when i was there, i was the happiest i have ever been in years so that must mean it is meant for me.

time for bed. i will b posting more

i love you hubby!!

<3>

goodbye, goodnight, good life

ria

is summer fun? no..its hell..

yeah you have no idea. summer is hte worst thing that could happen to a swimmer. your stuck in teh sun ALL day getting sunburnt, dehydrated, and jsut tired. you train in the morning and work the rest of the day. a lot of siwmmers work for their coach so u cant miss pracitce and than go to work. or vice versa. and then the only way to do summer skool, evening classes. rough. no friends outside of swimming. no life. nothing. heres probably the worst summer im about to endure. and imma come out of it wit a bang!!

normal day
wake up early for monring practice..time tbd in fremont
10-12 irvington coaching SA
12-3 free time to eat, sleep, or go to tutoring
3-4 summer team at ohlone
6-8 general psych at evc

and then wake up agian. somehow i need to fit in the half hour drive everywhere. the time i have to change and wait ofr my sister. and food. yup.

and on weekends. meets or workout.



when will i see my bf? idk. wen will i see my frineds? idk..when will i see my family? idk. i hate summers.

dispair

so this whole week has been a rough one. lets see
monday:
monday feels so long ago. it feels lik months ago i dont even remember wat happened on monday. i guess it was a brown day. umm..nohting that i remember too much. i think it was already a bad day tho.
tuesday:
gold day. this was a shitty day. it all started with me almost rolling my ankle in the beginning of hte day walkin to second period. and i think i took a test in religion. and hten i went to math and did horrible on a quiz. i dindt kno anything and i got soo confused. and then i at lunch i had to sell raffles and i was copying aimees french hw. m. battle walked by me and caught me. we both got referals and aimee was hella mad at me. to make it worse we both had fuckin french class NEXT TO EACH OTHER!! and kmae wasnt there and m. battle decides he wants to make it more awkard for us and makes us partners. sooo awkward...and then we had to serve detention and we didnt even look at each other let alone spoke. and so that was bad enough. and then i had to go to swim practice and drive home. oh god it was soo hard to drive home. i jsut wanted to cry and sleep.
wednesday:
one year anniversary of my gmas death. this day was doing ok. i dealt with eerything pretty well. i was able to spend the whole day without crying. well the whole school day. i went to swim practice. and then wen i got out marques wasnt in teh library like he said he would b so i went searchin for a half hour lookin for him. i was soo mad. i left tearing up from frustration. and then i went to that case studies thing at bell. and then cipi decides she wants to butt into my convo wit adam wen i was talkin to him about how i dont lik how usc is surrounded by ghetto areas and she pops in and says "no its not, stop tellin ppl that" i guess i said shut up or something. but then she texts me and says something about yellin at her. eww get over yourself seriously. get over it..dont cry. and it is surrounded by ghetto watts and etc. u cant deny it everyone knows it. i mean if u feel comfortable there than fine but i dont and thats all i was tryin to tell adam until she fuckin cut me off. and then she tries saying something about how come aimee and i ignore her all the time. and im lik wtf ur misinterpreting something cus me and aimee arent talkin anymore. and then she goes 'well i dont wanna get into the middle of htis" watever i wasnt fuckin askin her. watever and then i was lik yenno i dont need this i hav enough to do today. and then she goes so do i..and i said well it happens to b the anniversary of my gmas death so how bout u back off. and seh stopped thank god. hella dumb. seriously back off i wasnt tryin to confront u i jsut am defending myself form someone who thinks they kno everyting
thrusday
my best firend and i finally talked again! finally. we were fine and stuff and we talked. i had a meet. and there was soo much drama. hella dumb knoch made us all race each other in the 100 free for our 'relay spot' i figured out after a while that he was full of shit. he wouldnt take off hte girls on the record breakin relay. he jsut wnadted us all to challange ourselves.
friday
fuck today
i hate it
it was fine i guess
and then marques decides hes gonna go to fuckin garrets party. i dnt even wanna talk about it anmyore. i was soo pissed off i wanted to break up with him. i wanted to go onto his myspace and facebook..end our relationship. take me off his top friends. delete wat i wrote on his page. i was soo mad!! and then i went to practice. and i was in a bad mood. debbie comes up to me and tells me to smile while holding my face. i said 'please dont' and back away. and then she was helal mad told me that iw asnt practicing. i mean i was jsut tryin to get some of my own space. i needed to b alone. thats all i wanted. i wanted time to myself. but practice really let me let out all my anger. i was soo full of anger. sooo soo angryy. i hav never felt soo frustrated i was shakin and everything. but after practice now i feel a lil better. im calmer. idk wats gonna happen wen we finaly talk. ughh. so now i jsut wanna sleep. and cry. and feel sorry for myself. no i dont feel sorry for myself. i feel bad for my attitude. and i promised marques i would change and fix everything. thats wat i need to do.
sat
high school service at my sister's swim meet.
gmas prayer service and talent show wit cousin deangelo singing well done by passion
sunday
culture proj at zachs
cemetary
mass


i think i am done now.