university of the pacific

so yeah im on a recruiting trip at UoP its fuckin amazing. ahhh i am so glad i came here but at the same time im not because lik now im hella fuckin confused. i dont kno wat to do. i guess that i need to list out my pros and cons of both of the schools. there is so much that i need to think about. but yeah so far i am jsut gonna talk about my party. and maybe wen i get back at hoem after i finish everything ill do all the listing and see what you gotta say. anywyas so, so far on this trip its been good.

last night. well yesterday i got dropped off at the pool and met some people. theres 10 recruits here, which is a lot. omg. but yeah it was cool. we went to dinner and started talking to everyone. its really cool. the team is this huge huge family. lik the guys and girls are together. so we jsut hella tlaked and stuff it was fun. and then i went back to the dorm and my host, elena, and her roomie, lia, and her recruit, jesse, we all jsut chilled. it was really cool. i lik jesse a lot she seems really nice and i think she likes it here a lot we are really alike in our situations and stuff. so yeah and then we went to the townies (town houses) and jsut chilled with the whole team, even the seniors. they are done with their swimming career basically. btw my host almost fell on me. so funny. anyways so we went there. ppl played beer pong .i hate beer. but eyah and then i jsut chilled and got to kno the other ppl. lik the seniors are really cool. lik april and maxwell. they are so much fun. and nikki. my fellow shortie and asian. so yeah we basically talked about what is goig to happen tonight. which is amazing. i guess we are gonna hit up a frat party and some other parties. its going to jsut be a huge dance party i am so excited. me and jesse are gonna stretch out in the hallway. haha its going to get sooo hot! omg. it was so hot last night. but i love this team so much and they hav so much fun.

yeah. so today i dont think we did anytihng. we jsut hung out in teh room most of the time. and then watched them practice. we went to jsut hang. and yeah. we each went to have a meeting with the head coach. it was cool. and yeah. so basically i was kinda blahhh. i was so scared of talking about all my injuries. but basically the huge emphasis was about how we are going to work and have a good time. blah blah. i am so distracted right now.

my hair feels gross. i wanna wash it again but im too lazy but i kno it would feel good. im kidna tired. blah. i needa take a nap again before i go out tongiht. cus seriously i am sooo tired right now. i barely have gotten any sleep. the guys last night upstairs were so loud. no one left till lik 130. it was so annoying and then wen i tried taking a nap today with elena the kid upstairs wit the new dj equiptment started playing again. sooo annoying omfg! i mean does it really needa be that loud. i need some sleep gag me. yeah.

i miss my boyfriend super bad. blah. where has he been all my life. ok yeah so i think i am going to see him on monday and i get to have lunch with the love of my life. i dont kno how things are going to work out when i go to college.

i need a nap right nwo!!!! bahhhhhhhh

bah bah bah

im off. kat if u read this i love you!

UC DAVIS!?!?!

chyeahh i got accepted. i am now an aggie. not totally officially cus i wont send it my national letter of intent till i get the actual letter. but it was amazing. its so surreal. ive been running around telling everyone. but its lik it hasnt hit me yet. and i am not even on the team. i got in wiht a lil nudge but on my own at the same time. i mean they actually think im davis material! which i am! because i am going there!! im still in shock. i knew i was gonna make it but then i got so worried at the same time because i didnt kno. ive been waiting since the beginning of the school year because i since then i knew there was only one place hwere i wanted to be and that was davis. i was always so scared that if i didnt get in my whole future would be ruined.

i have a uop official visit this week. i miss school on friday and i leave on thursday. hoepfully od doesnt be stupid and put me in an event because i cannot swim in it. so yes i just wanna go there to use ncaa money haha. and to jsut check out my options i wanna make sure i made the right decision with davis. but the coach seems really nice. and stuff so i can see myself having a good time tehre. and i heard that all they do is party. bahahah i get to get my drink on for the first time in a while. since davis. lmao. thats a long time ago.

btw crap i jsut got my english grade lowered to a b+ fuck i need that a- so i dont hav to take a final. shitballs.

yesterday was a good day. i went to go see my lover. he was at school and we hung out. i missed him so much. we rarely get to see each other. but now with me going to davis we are only a train away from each other. jsut a couple hours. we can visit each other whenever we want. and if i ever swim near home i can go see him too. we watched RENT last night too. Bryant was AMAZING!! he fricken did a toe touch in heels last night! crazy shit. omg it was amazing i thought was gonna die tho cus he jumped up onto the table and i thought he was gonna fall off. the whole show was amazing there are some really talented singers there! they were amazing. i applaud them for a great performance

junior prom was last night i hope everyone had a great night! well yeah i have a large physics test tomro that i am not ready for. and i guess a ex. sci test and a knee proj that no one has done. oh well. tootles

WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?!?!?

omg! i am having a rash all over my body and i dont kno why its all over. its slowly going to different places on my body. my stomach hurts soo bad. i am going insane soo bad rite now. oh my god!!!

so a bunch of stuff happened from the last time i checked. i am watchiin 24 right now. and bill just died! omg so sad. and yeah so basically a lot has happened. starting from today. i jsut got home and i was doing a bunch of scholarship stuff but now i am too lazy to really do it. hahah i ll write all my stuff in place of doing real hw. lmao.

this weekend was a good weekend. kinda sorta. day light savings time really threw me off. i had my cousins cotillion this weekend. that was a blast. im tired as fuck.
i would love to talk about wat happened but it was jsut wild. i didnt sit down for a second. yupp.

today at school was no good. ok yeah im done

i bought my rent tickets too! yay!!

waiting for thrusday to come. its my 18 month anniversary with my lovely boyfriend, marques mallare. its our first swim meet against SI which we are gonna fail.
and most imp. i will find out if i get accepted or not into davis!!! eeeek!!!

love you long time

shout out to kat pabings

again

its me and this girls 18th year. =] her birthday is tomro. and her party this weekend. which is going to be so much fun and we have a dance since i am in her court.


hahahha discovery of puttin up photos and tryin to not do homework. its raining real bad behind me. this girl whoever she is on american idol sucks balls.

ummmm

so yeah here are some pictures from sadies of me and marques being lilo and stitch. and then stuff from my party

university of pacific just...

called me. a student called me to invite me to some stuff lik their profile day and different thiungs. but ill b on an official visit with the swim team from the 19-21st and then there is an open house for my major. and i would go to a class, a lab, a presentation and lunch wiht professors and other students. i think it would be a perfect opportunity for me becuase if i dont get into davis then i would need to choose between going to uop and sjsu. and i want that back up. and if i do end up liking my time with the team then i would lik to learn more about hte major there and everything. and hopefully i get a chance to consider the same things for sjsu. but i have been accepted into both schools so thats good. yeah i hope i enjoy my time. i want to have that chance to enjoy the school because i did take the time to apply there and the admissions ppl took time to read my app. so i might as well consider it.

so yeah. but today was basically a major FML day and yeah. and now tomro i have to swim at club pracitce for the first time in lik 4 weeks. its gonna suck. and yeah i hate our team basically so lame. and high school is really boring. and yeah. i need to get some work done. and do some letters that are due tomro. fuck. ok i gotta go do that. peace blogspot....


kat, khrysten, shelley, lys, cipi, and kmae are leaving me all alone tomro!!!!
-vic

exhausting day

i told kat that i would try and blog more and i wanted to blog on the night of sadies but i was too tired. so i guess i can go from there

friday, feb 27, 2009
Sadie Hawkins
theme: Space Jam
Marques and I dressed up as Lilo and Stitch. he had on a pretty legit mask but i dont feel lik putting up the picture so go to facebook.
the dance was alright nothing too special. but i was fun. i enjoyed arjun kicking melissa nunes' bf's ass in the battle. that was fun. and just dancing and enjoying myself with everyone. denny's was yummy too with kat, khrysten, jesse, and marques. and then i drove the brothers home and then i went home. yup.

saturday, feb 28, 2009
i drove to foster city with my parents and bought my dare esp since i have been using my mommy's phone for the past few months. that was gettin really difficult when i was tryin to get into contact with people and the only person i could use to get through that was marques. and then kimmy came over to my house and we worked on our roller coaster project.
and then sleep.

sunday, march 1,2009
10 am church at st joseph mountian view
then i went to oakridge to go shopping with my mom and i spent all of my gift cards from alyssa and shelley to forever 21. i bought hella stuff. a cute dress, a cute short purple skirt, 2 tops, a headband, sunglasses, and a belt. =] woo hoo. all $81. =]
then kimmy came over and worked on our roller coaster proj. she left at 2. it was jsut stressful and takes a while.

monday, march 2, 2009
school.
i had first period off but i was doing my math proj and then doing our roller coaster paragraph. i was still very tired and had huge ugly bags under my eyes. i looked lik shit. but thats ok because wen i went to physics everyone else looked jsut as bad at me so i didnt feel so bad. and math was so homo and then i just slept through all of exercise science. and i guess i have a quiz tomro in history but i dont hav my book so elyse passed me her notes. thank goodness for kind people. i still need to read weep not child. i think i need 20 more pages. or soemthing lik that. maybe less.

anyways, i jsut dont get anything about relationships anymroe.
boyfriend and i celebrate our year and half in 10 days. but its lik rediculous, slowly i am having a harder and harder time tryin to keep this relationship going. its supposed to be easy lik it always was before. its so annoying. he is never around anymore and we dont talk so its lik im forcing myself to love someone that i cant even remember if i really do love him or not. its not good when i have to question my feelings. lik what kidna bullshit is that. and then all of a sudden now he decided that he wants to join a fuckin frat. wtf is that bullshit. and now its taking up all his time cus he has to do all this stupid dancing bullshit. its all hella dumb. and he tells me that i act lik this is the worst thing in the world. but u kno wat the fuck, i am his girlfriend, why else would i not b mad. duh it takes up all his time and he is going to go to other parties and other different things lik that and then its jsut gonna go over board. i dont give a fuck. if he really feels like he needs to be going out there to get soem kidn of social life thats bullshit. i dont care if he says thats not the reason. as his girlfriend, i see that as nothing other than that. and i hate it. its jsut gonna make this relationship even harder. i kno i should but i dont think i can trust anyone, not even him. i dont believe that everyone is good. i kno hes gonna make a mistake. hes a huge flirt so hes probably all over all the girls taht try to get on his fuckin nuts at skool. its all bullshit. all i have to say is that wen i go to college, if he keeps pulling this bullshit im doing to join whatever is gonna piss him off. or make him uncomfortable. or i jsut wont talk to him. jsut keep swimming and go out and enjoy college. wihtout him really in my life. cus thats wat i am right now. bullshit. complete bullshit. i hate liars. and i dont lik sororities and frats. i think its jstu an excuse for ppl who feel lik they need some kidna of community to help them find real friends. they are jsut gonna b lik everyhthing else. he is such a follower. he jsut wants to b apart of the in crowd. lik everyone else. if i ahv so many problems why am i wiht him? sometimes i dont kno. i love him but i hate the things he does. that might not seem fair but i dont care anymroe. hes made those mistakes himself. and he doesnt seem to care about what i have to say about things.

im out peace.
ps i might still b pissed off tomro.