he told me he loves me...

ahhhhhhhh!!! and it may seem so fast but he's liked me for 4 years. and im totally fallin head over heels for him lik no joke! i just am a lil confused not too sure bout things. but at teh same time i kno i hav never felt so strong and stuff..but im kinda lik not sure and going back on myself. lik how can he feel this way about me. wat makes me so special and privelaged. and watnot. so yeah.......

todays sched was simple:
- church at 10 am
- went to valley fair
- went to the apple store and bought: laptop sleeve, laptop lock, itouch cover, apple gift card for emmy
- went to go get a few other things
- went home
- met up with jon and went to emily's house for her birthday.
- jon was soo bored and i felt sooo bad!!!! but he wanted to see me and i told him i was gonna go so my girll on her bday. so yeah.
- then em had this puzzle out and her lil cousin killed it! she was so upset and jon got kidna occupied with that. hahaha
- and thats about it. simple but relaxing and good food.

yesterday:
- went to stockton
- got my itouch
- hung out with the cousins and doggies

tomro:
- pack
- go to get my shots
- go to get alterations done
- go to zumba......

i leave in exaclty a week. as of next week at 7 pm i am officially beginning preseason training. kidna scary nwo that i realize that it is coming up so quick...

and idk with jon. i feel lik his friends are really not likin that he hangs out with me even though its mostly during the day and stuff. and they blame everything he doesnt do with them on me. so i am not sure how much longer this will last. and i hope they dont make him choose between us and stuff. that would be horrible. rite now he is intensly tlakin to carl about stuff and lik jon and i arent even talkin even though we are on vid caht so i decided to blog about it. and i really hope this doesnt put a whole through our relationship cus that would really suck. i hate how they dont approve and on most cases they would approve of most girls he would prolly go for but its becasue they all know me and i hav known them the longest. lik ive known them longer then him. they were my core group of friends wen i was growing up on the team and wat not. i even dated one of them. and the fact that they are making this that much harder for him and that he is struggling and feeling stuck and confused.

theres this huge issue i guess with him texting me all the time wen he is hanging out with his friends and stuff. i guess its jsut really annoyin to them and now its startin to piss me off that the KEEP ON CONSTANTLY BRINGING IT UP!! lik jon and i agreed that he only will text me once or twice every hour or so. lik is that enough torture..that we agreed so that it doesnt make his friends feel uncomfortalbe and have more reasons to complain about me. but no they hav the nerve to say jsut dont text her at all. ughh. idk this is makin me feel very uncomfortable and very unsure about everything i have no idea wat i should be thinking rite now. lik wen i ma with him jsut me and him its perfectly fine but wen i am with the crew i feel the tension i feel the heat that they dont want me around. which is so dumb. wat did i do to make them lik this? is it because i still swim on the team and they dont? because i was successful enough to want to do my own thing and get away from them and have a real fuckin life. and they are jsut being stupid i am starting to really hate every single one of them now. i kno they care about jon but they could care less about me. so why should i care about them other than them beign his core group of friends. wat the fuckin hell is up with that. wat assholes would be so bitchy wen they all used to be my core group of friends. im gettin soooo sooo fuckin sick of hearing aobut them complain about things about me TO ME! lik seirously. i hear it all. i dont want to deal with it anymore. im jsut gonna have to sit back and listen and laugh with jon too but im gettin so tired of them. if he wants me to hang out with them im gonna pass from now on. even tho i really cant. i jsut wont do it because i am so tired of this bullshit. they dont want me there..i dotn want to be there. they want jon. and he wont focus on anyone else but me if im there anywyas. so its better off i jstu dont get involved with them anymore. they are all beign fuckin stupid. i hate this shit. its rediculous. next time they all try to im me or watever. i just wont talk to them. i cant stand this anymore. ughhhhhhh.

anywyas. so yeah im gone. soon. really irritated. barely even wanna talk to my bf right now. he's being all chill even tho he's irritated and is tryin to tell me to stop being so irritated. and gettin all upset with me wen i say i dont wanna talk rite now cus im blogging about thigns and venting my life away about stuf that i cant tell him because they are his friends. and he doesnt understand the pain and heartbreak i feel every time they do something stupid lik that. it really jsut hurts and i kno it shouldnt and its dumb im really jsut ughhh. anyways. so yeah i dont even wanna tlak to him rite now i told him to go talk to carl cus im irritated and jsut really wanna let all my feelings out rite now. and ughh this is so not wat the blog was supposed to be about. it was supposed to be happy and cheery and talk about how im leaving soon. but now im jsut kidna relaly annoyed at all these thigns.

so yeah im glad there is a such thing as blogging so i can let this all out and all my avid listeners ( i love u mains) or readers know wats going on in my life wihtout my needing to explain everyting in person and get more irritated. u feel me? ok i guess i better go and talk to my bf now he seems to be gettin a lil upset. that wouldnt be good if we ended a good day on a bad note.

i lvoe you all. i hope school is going well!! i miss u!
ria

today was a good day

hahha i love my rando imagesss..

anyways today was a very good day i will currently list all the reasons why and then maybe possibly explain more in detail
- i swam 3000 yards with karen
- i got to spend a lot of time wiht my bf
- he told me that he's crazy for me =]
- i made a skype account
- i took khrysten's vid chat virginity LMAO


reasons why its not so great.
- my dad is being a douche bag
- my mom is being a butt
- i still cant sign up for my classes
- i had to leave and not spend more time with my bf

lml and fml.

so yeah i was talkin to my cousin adn he was asking if jon and i were gettin serious and i was lik i dont think so. i kinda dont wanna think about that cus it will make going to college a lot harder and stuff. and then lik yesterday my friend was talkin to me about how jon and i planned on gettin together lik i was expecting adn hoping for it. whcih is totally polar opposite because he didnt even wanan tell me that he liked me. i mean i dont mind it but stil. but he siad somethin aobut us falling for each other. and im not sure wat that means but ive been thinin about it and stuff. and i jstu dont kno. lik he makes my heart beat faster than ive ever known. and i get flustered wen he kisses me.a nd i drive home speechless and motionless only thinking about him. and i guess he is kdina the same way. idk wat that means. i have always been his friend adn we've cared about each other that same way. and lik this is a relationship that only improves by our even now closeness. and its a friendship that will last but i dont kno if its more. if its growing so fast i cant even keep up. ah my head is spinning!!!! omg i dont kno wat to do! eeeek! ok i need to stop. i will talk more later. im going to stockton for a family thing tormo that should be good cus i get to see my cousins and kidna get away and watnot. lvoe you all. i hope things are going well!

ahh im leaving soon! i needa start packing. will do starting monday when he starts school

damn

omg so today i got an email from my women's studies teacher and it said that my class got cancelled! its my only class that gave grades and fulfilled GE credit ughhhh. so i hav been freaking out and i thought i was all set and everything i figured out my sched and i wont hav classes on thrus but then i tried registering today and i guess my pass 2 isnt till sept 3rd. so i hav to wait till then ughh. i hope no one takes those courses or else im going to DIE that means i am ineligible for school. how much would that suck. i hope id ont hav stuff lik that to worry about rite before i leave for davis. ughh now i have an even worse headache.

and i was talkin to my friend jaycob about doing hookah and stuff since khrysten adn ro were talkin to me about it and stuff. but i dont kno and i kidna asked jon about and it he said that its smoking basically and he doesnt do that. and yeah idk i prolly wont do it but im kidna confused cus he does weed and drinks a lot but he refuses to smoke..i relaly dont get any of this. but i just guess watever. i will jsut stick to dancing and sometimes drinking. hahahah. ughh.

so yeah ok well today i didnt go to polo today cus jon was hurting from doing muhy tai or watever yesterday so he was urting too much from going so i went to his house this mornign adn got so lazy that i jsut dindt go either hahaha but i slept for lik 12 horus it was redic. i got hella tired and took a nap and never woke up lmao. ok well im gettin tired and hurting a little. can u believe this my hair is growing alreayd!! im gonna hav to cut it sometimes soon.

ok time to go.

back achess....

currently just smashed yet another jamba juice...original aloha pineapple, thick with energy to be specific. lol

agenda for TOOO DAEEEE:
- woke up at 850 and wanted to shoot myself in the head lol
- left the house around 920
- got gas because i literally was running on NOTHING in my car
- drove to ohlone and ran into an old friend, karen, who used to swim on our swim team and ironically just graduated from UCD!!
- we got in and swam and then EDDIEEEE showed up who i guess came back from hawaii last night. but i was really excited to see him i really did miss that fool surprisingly
- we picked a set each person and then we just swam them all lol
- ashley kendell was there throwing around the ball and karen was talking to her. i eventually joined her and after that was history. i was having wayy tooo much fun throwing around the polo ball
- i miss playin and throwing and have so much potential and skill. i feel so cheated from that stupid car accident it makes me so upset
- so after playing with only swimmers for a while i started contemplatin on playing with the big boys aka college boys aka jon's friends. hahaha awkwarddd to the max
- so yeah playing and stuff was fun but it kinda made my back really hurt so now its aching =/ maybe i shouldnt play tomro...
- and then i went to the animal shelter with jon and OH MY GOD those doggies and kitties were SOOO CYUUTEEEEEEEEEEEE i wanted to take them all home with meeeee!!!
- so yeah i have this huge urge to go adopt some dogs now
bahhh ok no more bloggin im vid chattin with em. ttyl

sick

im gettin sick..fuck my life.
i almost passed out as i was packing up some of my stuff.
im sweating hella bad rite now
i want to cry
my head hurts
i want to sleep but i cant
i dont know wat to do
should i swim tomoro morning?? yes i believe i should
should i go to the animal shelter with jon?? yes i believe i should
should i go to zumba with ash tomro evening?? yes i believe i should
should i get some rest?? yes i believe i should

i have no idea what i should do!!! oh my god!!! i am fuckin dying rite nowwww


on a lighter note..jon bought carl's (my ex) mac laptop so now we can video chat and actually talk online welcome to the 21st century baby. hahaha. he set up his account today finallyyyyyy. hahha so yeah. maybe i should be sleeping now. im not feeling too hot. lets see if i actually wake up tomro

another sunday...

hmm.
date: Sunday, August 23, 2009
time:11:22 am

plans for today
- sister is cuttin her hair and donating it to locks of love
- so is my mommy
- i read the guidlines and i totally could have donated mine..but i didnt know =/
- currently texting aimee nguyen about boys and how they always find their way to us. we cant stay single for long periods of time. its a curse i tell you
- my boyfriend is currently watchin inglorious bastards with his mother which sounds lik a good movie so i must watch eventually
- i plan on starting to pack for preseason cus once i get that done i can start packin for move in day
- move in day: sept 19th!!!!
- preseason starts: sept 6th at 7 pm
- we go on a 35 mile bike ride!!!!!!!!
- 2 more weeks to spend as much time as i can with my friends, family, and boyfriend
- i need to pack for two weeks of hell training...but i think im gonna pack for 1 1/2 and jsut wash clothes
- i am pretty sure i almsot have everything for my dorm so i can start packing those things
- i need to buy a couple things mostly for my bike and electronics aka my mac. lol
- im super nervous about tyrin out for the team yet i am so excited because i kno i can get along with everyone there
- and davis in general just takes in people wiht great unique personalities it makes for an interesting campus
- i swear to god i will do my best to convince all of u reading this that davis is the place to be!! haahha
- why do i feel lik i have barely anyone to talk to online anymore...go on aim! badunkadunkchunk
- im ready to get the ball rolling. im in this huge waiting stage..and ive been waiting since may 19th when school was over for me.
- ITS MY TIME! nd i am ready to show the world what i got!
- i need to clean my bathroom today yuck

live life! love it! cherish it!

more college shopping...

so today i went to all kinds of stores with my mother to do more college shopping to just make sure that i have everything that i need. i visited:
- bed bath and beyond
- old navy
- victoria's secret
- walmart
- luckys

lol it took all day to shop there it was so long. i am so tired and exhausted now! i bought a couple things for my dorm at bb&b and then i went to the other stores to mostly go to and get clothes and stuff so i think that i am all set and stuff. so yeah that was mostly my day and then i got home for lik a couple mintues and then i went to my gpa's house to go pick up my daddy and sister. my gpa looks good and everything seems to be alright. i am currently watchin bolt! the dog is sooo cute at the beginning!!!! jon is going to take me to the animal shelter on monday finally so we get to play with all the puppies! i am so excited! so last night wasnt that good for me. jon and i were kidna arguing over misunderstandings and stuff but we figured it out. it was us jsut getin frustrated and mad at each other it was so dumb but in the end we both know that it was stupid and we are both over it haahahaha. so weird. so yeah i am currently watchin bolt it is very good so far in teh first few minutes that ive been here. miley's voice is hella annoying tho. wahhh!! i just saw the part where its only a movie! hahah i never new wat the story of the movie is. thans for the comments andrew and ro. i will try to make it more entertaining and wat not!

summahh

summah summah. why have u been so good and so bad to me? i do not understand? lol. so today and yesterday were good days. my boyfriend came home so i went swimming at ohlone in the morning and then i went home to get ready and shower. and then jon came over and we went to go to santana row to go eat at pink berry.. which is lik my favorite now sorry blush lol. i hella like the passionfruit (which jon got) but i really liked the pomegranate too. it was hilarious because we were so close to tanya's (jon's psycho ex) work aka cheesecake factory at valley fair. i fuckin ran into her wen my cousin took me to a grad dinner i lik hid from her it was rediculous cus she hates me so much. basically we hav a history because jon and i were really close and she didnt lik it and thought that we were cheating and watever. so she bitched me out over the phone one time. ehh so basically she hates both of us. anywhooooo. lol then we went to go see if they were playing movies but we had jsut missed them. so we went to go eat at maggianos. that went really well. we laughed a lot. =] and then we went to eastridge to watch district 9. at first i was lik wtf is this shit hahahahah but i really liked the end of it. it ended well. and then went home.

and then today i went swimming and jon went to polo so wen i was done swimming i watched them play. it was hilarious cus jon doesnt really know how to play yet so i was jsut totally enjoying the entertainment lol. and we went to eat and jsut hung out and joked around. it was hilarious. we had a legitimate arguement between CCS vs NCS in front of his dad lol. my mommy called me and said that my dad wouldnt be coming home from idaho today with my sister and grandpa because they had to take my gpa to the hospital. i guess his nose was bleeding and he was throwing up. but i guess b/c my dad layed him down..which is one of hte worst ideas. he needed to sit him up pinch his nose and put ice on his neck. i mean its a lot lik a bloody nose but the hospital is that is was a ruptured nerve. but everything is ok. i think he was dehydrated cus its super hot there. so he is flyin in tomro mornign while my dad and sister drive the car home. so everything is all good. i also foudn out that my aunt is moving out today. long story i dont really feel lik explaining. im just waitin for my cousin to call me back so i kno if he needs me or not. this shit is rough.

so yeah basically summer is good because i hav a boyfriend that cares and doesnt make things too serious. he jsut knows how to have a lot of fun and be totally relaxed and chill all the time. i love it. yet my family is still ehh. and im lik ehh on swimming too. debbie sent an email out saying we start swimming sept 2nd. thank god. i am really excited about that! thats wat i needed was to get real intense trainign before i leave. phewww. so yeah. meh. i dont kno wat else i feel lik talkin about. maybe i will come back and blog again tonight. but yeah.

love you vu tang!

im so bored outta my fuckin mindddd

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hahahahha. ok so basically i am really fuckin bored. let me try to do a recap of everyting that i havnt posteed since..well...mexico haha.
- i am currently writing on my very new and lovely macbook pro 15'. it is silver. normal. and i love it.
- yesterday i went to lunch with the vu-tang. i missed all of them all so dearly.
- we swam at the pool near angela's house jsut like we did the very first day of summer..and it was their last day of summer. <3
- then i went shopping with kp at newpark mall. bought 2 skirs, 2 shorts, and this piece of skanky attire lol
- i feel lik im broke and worthless at teh moment
- this morning i woke up at the very late time of 9 am (for most ppl thats early) hahah and went for a swim at 10 am with ashley. i lvoe that girl. she makes it so much more fun to go swim without a coach
- after swim we went to eat at panera with kristen.
- we told lots of stories
- went to verizon so kristen can update her new phone
- stayed at ash's for a little bit
- then i went home..went online..decided that im tired so i went for a nap which i have jsut woke up from
- and yet i am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!
- i wish my boyfriend was home
- i was a tad bit disappointed when he didnt go to polo practice this mornign even though nick went (he is campin with him too) but i guess he is still hurtin from teh training they did yesterday (for boxing) bah
- i have T-minus 2 weeks to start packing for davis
- i start preseason sept 6th come home afternoon of sept 18th. leave again to move in my dorm sept 19th. sweet. i wont have time to see jon =/
- i found out my dorm yesterday. segundo area malcolm hall =]
- my roommate..i found her on facebook. we added each other during the summer. we really get along. and we met at orientation. me her her friend amber kmae and shelley all got along which is such a good sign
- her name is bana she has teh microwave..i got the fridge and rice cooker
- romoorho bought me a rice cooker as a going away present wen we had our NOLA reunion dinner
- kyle couldn't make it to the dinner and i still hav somethin for him from mexico
- we are exclusively jsut friends to those who wonder
- last night i went to target with my mom and bought a shitload of stuff fo college mehhhh
- everyone is leaving already and a few of us are just stuck here waiting for our turn...
- but at least i start early for swimming which i am super nervo for!! i have to try out for the team. and i guess we go camping, on a hike, and biking!! ahh and of course lots of swimming today
- "if it kills me" by jason mraz is one of my fave songs of all time
- during the summer i discoverd the love for aj rafeal.
- yesterday i gave jesse all of marques' stuff..i felt a huge relief
- i mostly swam this summer..and worked. was always sleeping or driving in between so i never had time for blogging sorry
- i never went out to a single party
- never really hung out with anyone besides swimming ppl
- went to lunch with kirk to finally eat our pho before he left for cold city (west michigan)
- orientation was a blast i met so many great ppl!!! i cant tell that i lready am gonna love it there
- i have no idea what i am going to do with my life from now till sept 6th. i guess jstu start packing and go work out
- i am not ready to pack up my life and move on in all honesty.
- im ready to get away and meet new ppl. start a new life. but im not ready to leave this one behind..most especially the ppl i know who are my true friends...
- this summer khrysten and i bonded a lot and same with kp.
- i had soem on and off good friends in swimming. i think of all things i am just really ready to get a new set of ppl to swim with
- im going to miss the high school friends and life i had..but at teh same time i am so over it and ready to move on
- i had a good group of ppl at SF and teachers who liked me..some who didnt. but overall i have so many great memories there and i grew and learned so much..but i think i am ready to use those skills i learned at my new destination....
- i am so ready and in LOVE with davis.
- summer is summer..and its almost gone. my life is about to change in a matter of weeks and i hope its all for the better. goodbye old life...hello adulthood
boyfrienddd callingg...update more laterrr

new man

so i am so very sad that i havnt been updating this but now i am. this is for you andrew and ro! hahah. so if u didnt notice from the title and the picture. i have a new boyfriend. marques and i broke up beginning of july. it was supposed to be mutual but then he started yelling at me and that didnt go so well. lets jsut say he really hurt me so that is never gonna happen again. so yeah that failed basically lol. and then well long story short. jon is my boyfriend. we've been friends for four years..used to swim together. we are really close friends. and all of a sudden i started seeing more and more feelings coming from him and i used to hav this fat crush on him. basicallyyyy story cut short..we got together on aug 11th. blah blah. hes perfect. amazing. doesnt have all these rules for me. its so chill and relaxing. he makes me feel special and wat not. but hes camping and im missing him lik crazy. he comes home on thurs...i hope it comes soon! i'll prolly jsut sleep so i can let it all pass sooner. ill try to update more! esp wen im in davis. love ya'll.
<3
vic