NOLA PICS

slaughtered

today we had a meet against mitty. we seriously got slaughtered like no other! it was so horrible. but just unbelievable at the same time. cus we were undefeated before this and they jsut destroyed us. so i was thinking can u imagine if they went up against ndb. thats even worse. poor things.

so much has been happeneing. the blogging isnt really there. i havent been feeling it too much. today jsutin asked alyssa to prom. it was funny. he got an electronic car and wrote prom on it. i walked with it wen we went across teh street. it went well. i am a tad bit worried about him saying something about hte hotel room thing. and cipi is asking khrysten if we want to go in the limo with her. but we arent. and the room is so much cheaper. and im pretty sure our numbers are set and wat not. and mommy is fine with the room thing cus kats mommy is going to be there. which is awesome. and then we are all gonna get our hair and makeup by my couisn and her bff. well maybe. it depends but itll b good. hopefully my dress comes in lik soon. and i mean really soon cus i want to see it all. marques need to get his tux. and i need to get our corsage and boutineres. and stuff.

i am going to be baking a lot this weekend. i am going to try making ice cream cake as a practice round for kyle anderberg's bday and hess too. so i am gonna do that, brownies and/or choco cookies. my snickerdoodles are still very tastey. i hoep all the retreat ppl are doing well and i hope that they liked my letters. so i think i have a fat crush on the cute shy kyle anderberg. well sorta. haha hes so sweet and loving. hes so shy of girls so that makes him very loving and caring. kmill doesnt really talk to me. and i texted him today and he kidna texted me but not really. and hes nto telling me wats wrong in his life that is making things so hard. my head really hurts. i need to sleep. but i also need to do that math test. and i need to read. and stuff. i have to do my allergy shots tomro mornign. ughhh. no fun.

i sadly dont talk to my lover. he is so busy with midterms and his fone doesnt work. or he jsut doesnt text me back. it makes me very sad. that i jsut cant/dont tlak to him. so i mean its lik im single sometimes. i mean if we are gonna be away can we at least talk to each other. now its a full on jsut not talk and update each other aobut lives and wat not. ughh. its the weirdest feeling int eh world.

graduate soon. graduation party. sunday after...park near my house. everyone is invited. info to come.

so i guess its going to rain tomro and this weekend. oh speaking of this weekned. i dont really have much to do. well i guess i hsould be studying for physics and other school things. but i think that i will be baking. and then i might hit up the mall to check out bakers with aimee to look at shoes. and i need to figure out wat kidn of jewlery i want. cus next weekend is wcals. so its hard to do anything. but yeah bf is far away in sac. khyrsten needs to go dress shopping but she needs to do some other stuff. all the juniors are taking sats on saturday. no life no life. its kidna nice

omg i read my swim schedule for the summer. i swear to god debbie doesnt think tha we have lives ouside of swimming. how am i supposed to be going out to see ppl in the evenign? i swim int eh mornign. i work all day. adn then she wants me to swim agian. i dont go. fuck her. id otn care that much. i want to enjoy my time before i go to college. maybe i jsut shouldnt work in the morning. if she doesnt give me the site supervisor position. i will nto work. ugh


things to come:
may 1: rain, finish college stuff
may 9: wcal finals, uc english test
may 13: kyle and michelle's bday
may 15: senior skip day, ccs trials
may 16: senior ball, ccs finals
may 23: graduation!!!!
may 24: graduation party

btw. i am rooming with kmae in college =]
peace out

fourteen days

soo basically the first week back from coming home from immersion. it has been super difficult i am not gonna lie. cus in all the classes we basically have one more unit to do and i jstu feel lik i am not doing/gonna do anything and there is not point for school right now. so yeah i am kinda being overwhelmed right now because of everything with the immersion. and kyle anderberg and i are doing a presentation for romoorho's homeroom. i need to make a power point aobut the work that we did with josalyn's group. so i needa get that form her and somehow kyle and i need to figure out how to make a power point. hahahaha. hes the cutest kiddo ever! he needs to get not shy lol. i would take him to my prom but i have my boyfriend. who i am going to ask to prom tomoro at his demo. omg that is so scary for me. i dont want to ask him in front of everyoneeeeeee but i guess i am. i hope jesse follows through lik the loser he is. idk i jsut texted him and he is being a lazy butt. and wat not. so yeah.


immersion was amazing. and i want to talk about it but i have all the time int he world but i am in the mood to do some baking. cus i owe lots of peeps and i am going to make it for the retreat ppl. and i need to write the letters for them and all that jazz. its going to be great i guess. i hope. and then i am going to go prom dress shopping tomro mornign with my mommy. its gonna be fun. i should be showering and allt aht stuff now but i think i will tomro mornign. hopefully i can get some sleep. ok i need to start now. lol. nighty night. ill do this later.

love you, miss you all.

spring break

so now i am on spring break. thank goodness. so basically i had english. we had the vocab game the whole time and then i had gov. ms walsh wasnt there so we had a sub but we were taking our test. but our sub was ms hayes teh smokeaholic. hahaha. so basically she started coughing lik no other and was hacking away and left the room. it was a great group test. i must say. hahah and basically i was done after taht. lol. i got to drive my mommy's car, which should be mine it was a really nice drive. it made me really excited and sad at the same time because that was supposed to be my car. part of me is hoping that for grad they will let me use it until i go off to college. and i drive so much anyways its better to get teh smaller car. cheaper. duhh! i tried that arguement last year but it didnt work. =/ so yeah i went to teh chiropractor to check out my shoulder. i have tendonitis again. well ive had it but i guess my chiropractor got a real good look at it and when he was feeling around it hurt sooo sooo bad. i was in soo soo much pain. ahh. so basically i kicked all of practice. and then yeah. i want to jsut go cycling tomro cus theres no point in jsut kicking lik that. i wanna ride my bicycle!!! heheh. yay aggie! lmao. basically. i get to spend time with my hubby for the last time tomro before i have to go to new orleans. im going to miss him =/ and then friday i see my chiropractor again and i am going to church with fambam. this is the longest fricken mass of the year. hahaha. its hellla long i hate it!! but i am jsut gonna tyr and be comfy. lol. and then saturday is mass again and time with the fambam. i am excited to see them. i miss them all so much. but i wish marques could come. i want him to hang with my cousins they all really like him. but he is gonna be with his familiy i think. yup and then sunday im with my fambam. and jsut gonna chill. than early mornign i needa be at san fran by 830 at teh airport to leave for nola. i am so nervo and chelsea and i needa really get the ball rolling on our stuff. i hope i can remember everything. so yeah my mommy was asking me if i want my small grad party/lucnh to be at the park near my house or across teh street. i can invite friends but i assume that all the ppl that are having a luncheon arent gonna be there. so ill do it for more fambam and swim friends and college peeps. yenno. give me feedback. i wanna kno wats going on. and does anyone kno wats goin on for prom? kat? my mom seemed fine with it wen i was talking to her about it. but i didnt mention the sleeping over. hahaha. and boys. lmao. but yeah tell me how it goes. and does anyone need a hairstylist and makeup artist? ask around with the ppl joining us ok?!?! my cousin needs the money. lol. ok i am jsut gonna take a nap real early today. haha after american idol. but i didnt finish slumdog. but i will tomro after i take marques back to school. ok im off. sam schiro tells me the beach was lame. tell me i wanna kno.

i love you guys. and miss you!

hurt shoulder

so basically i came to school and studied like no other for phsyics and math. i taught myself basically how to do all the problems in a half hour and then i did math. then i took my tests. phsyics was ehhh, i hope i got that one problem right. i was struggling but i think i got it. i was semiconfident. and then math i think i did real well with taht. i struggled but i really figured it out. and i asked mr volta if i did it right for one of the problems and he said that it looked perfect so that made me really confident. yup and then i went to lunch. ate ice cream even tho i didnt wannna eat sweets after that fricken cookie dough i ate yesterday. that should nto be allowed for me anymore. my account should b closed. fuck. haha. ok btw wtf is up with it being all rainy and shit today? it was soo hot yesterday and i was dying of heat stroke. and today it was freezinggg!!!!

omg fringe is back on!! i am so excited. even tho i should be studying for government and working on my scholarship. ugh this is so frustrating. its weird for me to think taht we have spring break after tomro is over. so we had a meet at serra today against ndb. i finally got to swim 100 free and 100 back. but i somehow hurt my shoulder really bad it was really really werid. so now it hella hurts. i fricken didnt kno wat i did so it hurt really bad. and yeah so i am going to see my chiropractor tomro. and wat not. ok i needa get going on this work. peace.

NOLA meeting

so today i pretty much slept in till about 11. last night was not a good night for me and marques. he was not payin attention during his texts to me. we fought he said a lot of dumb things that i was not in the mood for. i dont understand why i get so frustrated with him adn his frat. i just dont support certain things. and really selfish and i dont like to share. is it really that bad? i am not sure bue sometiems i think i really push it overboard.

so i left with mi madre and we went to go pick up marques at his house around 1:20. and then we went to good will for a lil bit. i bought a pair of hiking boots for about 10 bucks. i need them for new orleans to work in. i really need some thick socks. preferably wool and comfy. idk what i am gonna do with that. but it was perfect cus it fit me and everything. i jsut need to get better laces and bam! i got myself a pair of hiking boots. and if htey get really messed up in nola i can leave them there for future volunteers or seomthing and that gives me space in my luggage. speaking of space. i need one luggage to fit all my jeans to work in, sleeping bag, pillow, sleeping mat, hiking boots, a bunch of long sleeve shrits, sweatshrit, jacket, socks, undies, toiletries, meds, etc etc. ahh. idk how i am gonna fit all that. chelsea and i are gonna split some of it so we can share and not use up all the room for some of the things. i might need to bring a small duffle bag too so i can use that. its gonna be humid that so i need to be prepared for the weather.

so basically our meeting started at 2 and lasted till 4. i would say it was more of a meeting for the paretns. we kidna jsut hung around and told stories. marques talked but i kinda ignored him. idk it is really really hard for me to listen to him talk about new orleans. i think its cus i didnt lik the ppl he went with and all taht stuff. there were so many problems for us at that time that i jsut cant listen to him talk about it. it bothers me. what also bothers me is that when ppl talk about the destruction of nola its lik ppl dont notice. but at least ppl are noticing more than they do in downtown san jose. that really really gets on nerves. i dont kno why it bothers me soo much. to be honest. its jsut some of those really weird feeligns and all that. its so difficult. so yeah we did basically nothing really. the paretns were in another room talking. we kidna did some bonding time with each other a tad bit. did all aht watnot stuff. and then we were doneski. then mi madre and my bf went to sweet tomatoes. i drove as usual. and that was tastey i just wish they had more variety. yadada? it was satisfyign tho. esp the "frozen yogurt" from breyers. delicious i must say. and then i dropped the boyfriend off cus he was getting sleepy and needed to get back to skool for his chapter for the fraternity aka ato. and then i went back to goodwill bought some jeans so that i can work in them. bought the fire brand. same jeans i alreayd own jsut darker. haha for 8 bucks so i am keeping those. they are skinnies. and then i bought a pair of softy levis that were comfy and great for working it. and super thick and stuff. prolly gonne get paint everywhere and worn in. itll look sick. and i can keep them for when i go working again cus i plan on doing more service even throughout college hopefully. umm and basically yeah that all i did today. went home. now im here. doing nothing. went through my clothes found more jeans and long sleeve shirts i can use. i need to buy some leather gloves. and a bike but thats for college. haha. i wore my cute uc davis aggies shirt. it made me happy. =] i also need socks. and i think thats it. i need to remember my hat. and i should bring extra hair ties jsut in case. and then i think i am set for life. i cant believe that i am leaving in a week. taht is crazy. but there is so much that still needs to be done before i leave. and then there is easter too this weekend. and i get to see my family, which i am super excited cus i miss everyone. and hoepfully i get to see the boyfriend because i want to see him before i leave. oh and we are going to sonics in nola right after we get off the plane! i am so fucking excited!! and then we will be going to the french quarters. and definately going to be seeing mitty. ewww yuck. hahaha. oh well.

eww white day tomr. that isnt going to be fun i dnto really know wat is due tomro. and i am so unprepared. i have a meet against notre dame belmont on tuesday. its gonna b easy but thats not the point. i am supposed to swim well and go fast in the 100 free and 100 back. i hope i actually can swim. ugh. i need my CCS cuts. but then again im thinkin of jsut not going haha. who knows if ill be swimming soon anyways. and then i have no idea about school work a bunch of tests that i am not ready for. awesome!

yesterday i found out that my dad's aunt jsut passed away. i didnt really know her that well because i dont really kno my dads side of the family that well at all. i never see them ever. they never really see me but i guess we are gonna try and make more of an effort to see them. but that usually isnt me because i am always busy doing something. i am a busy person afterall that even family doesnt really get time of day sometimes. but i guess my dad is taking my grandpa up to san francisco on wednesday and is attending the funeral there as representatives of our family. my aunt from jackson (small town near sacramento) is going too. but my uncle who lives in idaho cant make it cus he is getting surgery cus he messed up his shoulder from falling in the garage its crazy shit. *sigh* oh well. families being torn apart and ppl not really knowing what is going on. and i am really sad cus my cousin didnt get into carnegie mellon and she really wanted to go there. so now she is choosing between boston uni and cal poly slo. and i mean i want her to be happy and i love boston so its an excuse to go see her. but i also would die if she left me so far away! i dont know what i am going to do with myself. speaking of that. what am i gonna do with marques? i mean its totally a diff situation. this year was hard cus he went to colelge and i was still in high school. two totally diff environments and stuff. but he was so close to me but i rarely got to see him. but still hes close. and he came home everyweekend. and there i knew he was near me so there was that small type of toture i guess. but then when i go to davis. i have that feeling of him being 2 hours away from me and we cant always go and see each other. and i am in college leading my own life. and i guess i need to let him lead his. but im scared i dont kno wat i am going to do! gahh!! college is scary!

btw facebook is soo boring. nothing to do. i guess i should be doing my work. dont i seem to be saying that everytime i blog? yes i am. haha. i should really really do it tho. i have so much stuff to study for.

helloandgoodbyetomylovers!

davis

it was amazing as usual. it jsut helped make me feeling amazingly positive about my choice. i loved being there, the environment. the people it felt perfect. so i just listened to a bunch of presentations about a bunch of stuff. hahaha. i think i am going to try and apply for their honors program which is called Davis Honors Challange. this is because you dont have to be super smart to be apart of it you jsut need to have motivation to want to be more educated and know thing. i can take extra classes adn work with a professor and a small class in depth of the subject. yeah i needa apply for it but i wanna email the counselor and stuff jsut to figure things out. i am worried about it all cus its gonna be hard with all the stuff with athletics happening too.



so yeah i was chillin with adam and andre today. that was fun. we ate in segundo that was delicious hahaha. wish i saw clarence. that woulda been fun. i got a bunch of brochures as usual. so many fricken papers that i dont need. the one that i really needed had to do with my major and the classes that i will be taking next year. oh btw i am taking an english class over the summer because i am supposed to take this test i guess but i coulndt take it cus it was the day of wcal finals. but i think i picked the better solution because i get college credit for it. bascially i take a shit load of fuckin chemistry adn calculus. taht doesnt sound fun but i need to get things done i guess. if i want to apply then i need to start checking things out. yeah i need to do all those thingy maboberss.



my throat really hurts and so does my head. we have a NOLA meeting tomro and marques is supposed to be talking or soemthing lik taht. i am gonna wear my aggies shirt. hahaha cus i am a devoute aggie already. i love my school. haha. i need to do work for school. fuckin monday is a white day adn taht is gonna be hard. and then all those tests because teachers are really gay and they do things last minute. i hope i dont have any tests on monday because i need to finish a scholarship essay in 24 hours. thats gonna be hard too. blah blah blah. i have so much to do. and i need to do my honors app before i leave for NOLA only because my dad wants me to do the early decision. but why fuckin put pressure on me when the regular date say may 29th? i dotn understand. my dad is so annoying. he was really gettin on my nerves today. and i have to go to orientation with him but its ok cus i wont really be with him. and then i have to study for my placemetn tests over there. because i dont wanna get pushed back in my studies when i should be taking the correct classes.


i guess i should get on doing all that stuff instead of bloggin and watching movies. but i jstu cant do it. i jsut wanna sleep. i hope i dont keep getting so damn sick right now. shit. always.


oh yeah and lmu rejected me! hahah i find it dumb because how can u reject someone who is basically doing everything you ask. i have special talents, i do extra curricular, etc etc. adn they said my grades sucked but guess wat i got into davis fuckers! and its more prestigous. i didnt even wanna apply there anymore because i knew i had changed my mind. but my mom forced me to do it. and i ended up sending it last minute. waste of $60. watever. i jsut found that kidna interesting and i was jsut talking about it with my parents. watever. they didnt even have my major really. i jsut like the campus and the area but i can always visit people. yadada. and well i cant believe that was my first choice for a long time. i woulda been fucked. hahahaha. good thing i found the perfect school for me!

i need to do work. no more college rants.

higuysss! hope you had a good weekend!!

swim vs. pres

so basically this meet was homosexual. yet very eventful at the same time. well basically i was only in relays. 3 relays. one c relay 2 b relays. so in the 200 medley i swam back and im pretty sure i came in pretty close to everyone in the lead. yeah thats right bitches! fuckin dumb ass coaches. haha and then basically i massaged tony dito for hours. but his skin is so sensitive and i massage so hard that everywhere i touched his back was so red. hahaha. it was funny. i laughed. adn then i started ranting about the problems i was having. esp with the relays and stuff. and maddi started getitn mad. and then we thought about how lik jacquie keeps fucking ranting and showing off that she fuckin does all the line ups and we realized that she is teh source of all my problems. she is trying to steal my relay and my chance to do well in high school swimming. so homosexual. again. ahha so basically the epic part of my day was taht. maddi basically yelled teh shit outta jacquie it was amazing! i wanted to yell at her to but i didnt really. i wanted to email her today but right now i have alot of work to do that i havnt started yet. to be honest. hahah.


umm. so tomro i am going to go watch fast & furious with teh boyfriend tomro. i am really excited because it looks so good. yay! umm tomro is sports day so i need to come home and hcange before the movies. yuppp


the pacific coach called. he had a nice convo with me and stuff. and then he asked me aobut the money stuff. but he said he felt bad cus they dont really have money to give out. so he feels bad but he understands y i wouldnt go there and he wants me to keep him updated. he is sooo nice. i mean what coach is that nice. yup basically

i need to read for english. work on my college scholarship essay. cus i need to get my stuff by tomro. read gov but i dont really need to. i really need to start studying for that test. cus there are gonna b a billion tests. and i wanna work on ex. science cus its kinda fun to think about it. but it also takes up hella time. so yeah. i needa get going.


davis on saturday with the parentals.


nola meeting on sunday


omg i cant believe im leaving for nola soon. ahhh!!!

spring spirit week

i have a 3.66!!! omg thank goodness i hope thats wat my six week grading period sayss. cus that would b AMAZINGG!!

so today was career day. i was a pizza my heart delivery girl, pizza-ria (haha yay parents), alex blefari (cus she works pmh mv), pizza. i love how my parents bought me that awesome hat. it was super cool.

i want to take a shower right now so my mommy can curl my hair but i want to watch the performances on american idol. so thats killing me rite now. ughh. bahh humbug.

so yeah i am really excited that my grades are good but the poor bf is not doing that well in school. he got a 3.9 last semester but now he is failing. thats not good. i think its the frat but he denies it. stupid boys. supposedly he says he is focusing on school but if he really is trying then he would not be gettin all these c's. thats jsut what i am thinking. i am watching american idol. but i want to shower!!

there is so much that i want to talk about but i am so unfocused. i need to write my scholarship essay. i need to rewrite things. and ms tas keeps asking me so i just need to get it done. like the rest of my other work. oh and i got a billion emails today and tis rediculous. because i didnt get a 680 on teh writing section on the SAT i have to take this dumb writing test thats so stupid nd they jsut give me this date and time. assuming that i am free what if i wasnt there. they are so fucking gay. and i have to pay. i mean i did enough fucking testing its so dumb. i hate it all. fuck my fucking life.


i want to quit high school swimming. thats the jist of all my problems right now. im going in and out of it. the more that i think about it the more i think about how miserable i am. why should i wait this out. there is no point cus i dont have fun and its a waste of time and the rest of my high school career. swimming doestn define me anymore. i jsut know a lot of ppl who swim. its gonna be hella fun in college i hope. but if i could really get wat i want is to jsut start a new fresh slate. i want to stop swimming for a while. i wanna work out in the gym, on land, in the pool on my own until after graduation adn my lil small senior trip if i have one. and when things are all set and work starts i am gonna start working my ass off again. and jsut start preparing for trying out. since i have to walk on and stuff. i jsut need to b apart of soemthing my freshman year. adn esp something that will get me free stuff and help me do early registration. blah blah blah. i hate how one little thing has so many consequences and some ppl dont want me doing one thing. so they would rather i suffer and cry. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE. i hate it when ppl dont understand what i am feeling. ppl are jsut lik "oh its not a big deal. id ont understand y its worrying you so much" its lik wtf. they need to jsut leave me alone cus if i cant handle this anymore. it drives me insane. i cry. i dont care anymore!!!!!!!!!!i dont wanna have to deal with thisssss. its driving me insane. cant you tell? fuck my fuckin life.

i dont feel lik ranting. or talking. so peace. hikatkhryandandrew!! i love you guys