NOLA meeting

so today i pretty much slept in till about 11. last night was not a good night for me and marques. he was not payin attention during his texts to me. we fought he said a lot of dumb things that i was not in the mood for. i dont understand why i get so frustrated with him adn his frat. i just dont support certain things. and really selfish and i dont like to share. is it really that bad? i am not sure bue sometiems i think i really push it overboard.

so i left with mi madre and we went to go pick up marques at his house around 1:20. and then we went to good will for a lil bit. i bought a pair of hiking boots for about 10 bucks. i need them for new orleans to work in. i really need some thick socks. preferably wool and comfy. idk what i am gonna do with that. but it was perfect cus it fit me and everything. i jsut need to get better laces and bam! i got myself a pair of hiking boots. and if htey get really messed up in nola i can leave them there for future volunteers or seomthing and that gives me space in my luggage. speaking of space. i need one luggage to fit all my jeans to work in, sleeping bag, pillow, sleeping mat, hiking boots, a bunch of long sleeve shrits, sweatshrit, jacket, socks, undies, toiletries, meds, etc etc. ahh. idk how i am gonna fit all that. chelsea and i are gonna split some of it so we can share and not use up all the room for some of the things. i might need to bring a small duffle bag too so i can use that. its gonna be humid that so i need to be prepared for the weather.

so basically our meeting started at 2 and lasted till 4. i would say it was more of a meeting for the paretns. we kidna jsut hung around and told stories. marques talked but i kinda ignored him. idk it is really really hard for me to listen to him talk about new orleans. i think its cus i didnt lik the ppl he went with and all taht stuff. there were so many problems for us at that time that i jsut cant listen to him talk about it. it bothers me. what also bothers me is that when ppl talk about the destruction of nola its lik ppl dont notice. but at least ppl are noticing more than they do in downtown san jose. that really really gets on nerves. i dont kno why it bothers me soo much. to be honest. its jsut some of those really weird feeligns and all that. its so difficult. so yeah we did basically nothing really. the paretns were in another room talking. we kidna did some bonding time with each other a tad bit. did all aht watnot stuff. and then we were doneski. then mi madre and my bf went to sweet tomatoes. i drove as usual. and that was tastey i just wish they had more variety. yadada? it was satisfyign tho. esp the "frozen yogurt" from breyers. delicious i must say. and then i dropped the boyfriend off cus he was getting sleepy and needed to get back to skool for his chapter for the fraternity aka ato. and then i went back to goodwill bought some jeans so that i can work in them. bought the fire brand. same jeans i alreayd own jsut darker. haha for 8 bucks so i am keeping those. they are skinnies. and then i bought a pair of softy levis that were comfy and great for working it. and super thick and stuff. prolly gonne get paint everywhere and worn in. itll look sick. and i can keep them for when i go working again cus i plan on doing more service even throughout college hopefully. umm and basically yeah that all i did today. went home. now im here. doing nothing. went through my clothes found more jeans and long sleeve shirts i can use. i need to buy some leather gloves. and a bike but thats for college. haha. i wore my cute uc davis aggies shirt. it made me happy. =] i also need socks. and i think thats it. i need to remember my hat. and i should bring extra hair ties jsut in case. and then i think i am set for life. i cant believe that i am leaving in a week. taht is crazy. but there is so much that still needs to be done before i leave. and then there is easter too this weekend. and i get to see my family, which i am super excited cus i miss everyone. and hoepfully i get to see the boyfriend because i want to see him before i leave. oh and we are going to sonics in nola right after we get off the plane! i am so fucking excited!! and then we will be going to the french quarters. and definately going to be seeing mitty. ewww yuck. hahaha. oh well.

eww white day tomr. that isnt going to be fun i dnto really know wat is due tomro. and i am so unprepared. i have a meet against notre dame belmont on tuesday. its gonna b easy but thats not the point. i am supposed to swim well and go fast in the 100 free and 100 back. i hope i actually can swim. ugh. i need my CCS cuts. but then again im thinkin of jsut not going haha. who knows if ill be swimming soon anyways. and then i have no idea about school work a bunch of tests that i am not ready for. awesome!

yesterday i found out that my dad's aunt jsut passed away. i didnt really know her that well because i dont really kno my dads side of the family that well at all. i never see them ever. they never really see me but i guess we are gonna try and make more of an effort to see them. but that usually isnt me because i am always busy doing something. i am a busy person afterall that even family doesnt really get time of day sometimes. but i guess my dad is taking my grandpa up to san francisco on wednesday and is attending the funeral there as representatives of our family. my aunt from jackson (small town near sacramento) is going too. but my uncle who lives in idaho cant make it cus he is getting surgery cus he messed up his shoulder from falling in the garage its crazy shit. *sigh* oh well. families being torn apart and ppl not really knowing what is going on. and i am really sad cus my cousin didnt get into carnegie mellon and she really wanted to go there. so now she is choosing between boston uni and cal poly slo. and i mean i want her to be happy and i love boston so its an excuse to go see her. but i also would die if she left me so far away! i dont know what i am going to do with myself. speaking of that. what am i gonna do with marques? i mean its totally a diff situation. this year was hard cus he went to colelge and i was still in high school. two totally diff environments and stuff. but he was so close to me but i rarely got to see him. but still hes close. and he came home everyweekend. and there i knew he was near me so there was that small type of toture i guess. but then when i go to davis. i have that feeling of him being 2 hours away from me and we cant always go and see each other. and i am in college leading my own life. and i guess i need to let him lead his. but im scared i dont kno wat i am going to do! gahh!! college is scary!

btw facebook is soo boring. nothing to do. i guess i should be doing my work. dont i seem to be saying that everytime i blog? yes i am. haha. i should really really do it tho. i have so much stuff to study for.

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