big weekend

not really. hahahah. well i got to see my boyfriend from thurs morning to sat morning. it was great we had a lot of time togehter and everything is jsut perfect between us. so yay me! lol. then jon dropped me off at my swim meet at sjsu and i did ok. all the rest of the teams were in so much better shape than the rest of us so they were kicking ass and we were all tired. and then yesterday we had to work at a masters swim meet. all day that took forever i was soo tired took a 2 hour nap after and then went to dinner and did some hw. its really not excitng lol. but wen we were watchin the masters swimming yesterday i totally decided that these ppl were sooo cool! that wen i get older i am goin to do masters swimming with jon and we are gonna stay in great shape lol. there was this 66 year old guy that was the world record holder in his event. bossss. lol. they were super cool. oh and morten came on a recruiting trip and i basically took care of that poor child on sat night. ehh. dont really feel lik talkin about it. dont really feel lik bloggin much actually. its gonna start to rain soon. well tomro actually. and kyle is here actually i think since there is not school at st francis and i think i am gonna hang out with him tomro since i dont hav practice since we hav the 20 hr rule and we worked on sunday. so at least i dont hav to wake up early this morning. so i dont hav any interesting classes for him to see lol so not that exciting. i have my first dual meet on friday. so exciting. lol. against reno. hopefully its not too bad. i missed weights this mornign because i wasnt feeling very good and i def woulda hurt myself or soemone if i lifted. tis a lil more dangerous to do that. ok time to do some online hw during this fuckin stupid class. love you all!

btw go check out teh ucdavis athletics page and check out our teams and go see the sf alum and their pics and profiles! im there too!!

workload chemistry

Date: October 7, 2009
Time: 1:56 pm
Class: Workload Chemistry
Prof: Chubbic
Location: Wellman Hall room 233

OH MY GODDD!! WILL SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME. the class hasn't even started yet and im hella bored. ive decided that i will bring my laptop with me every single class and this is when i will fulfill my blogging requirement. so the jist of this class is that its a review course for chemistry because i did not pass the placement test. i didnt pass my math one either so thats lik a freshman algebra class however. its not that bad because the class i half filled with athletes and everyone is hella chill. our prof is hella cool and i usually rush over from practice so i hav some sort of food in my hands. however, in this class its not so fun. we barely cover anything interesting or imp because it call can be read in the book and/or all of the imp stuff is done on our online homework which is all really gay must i mention. so basically she is going over basic chemistry again in a very slow pace so i find it quite annoying i jstu wanna get outta here. so i decided today i will b online and talk to ppl to make it seem lik i am takin notes..which i usually do but they really arent any help at all...so maybe i will take a few notes but mostly jsut do this and talk to jon online.

tomorrow jon is coming to see me! i am really excited because thursdays are my least busy days i have morning practice at 530 and then am free till evening practice and then math class after. i hav a quiz tomro and hopefully i can leave after that. and then friday morning i have a lecture after weights and i am done till afternoon practice. then after that i am going home with jon and stayin at his place for the night. then at 10 am there is a swim meet at SJSU..if u arent too busy come watch and support!! i love you all! hahhaha.

so swimming is hard. i am the slowest sprinter on the team and a backstroker but guess wat we are lookin for fast backstrokers and im not good enough. its a tad bit stressful when you have this running throught your head sometimes. it kinda sucks. and yesterday we did this test set...and test sets are sets that you get timed doing..pretty big sets and you repeat them throughout the year to make sure that you are improving or not. lol. so basically i improved a tiny bit. but i was soo ughh because wen we first did it...it was the first day of preseason adn i was right next to morgan and we paced off of each other. and yesterday we were right next to each other and after the first 2 100s she just jetted off with the rest of our group that was aroudn the same times and stuff. it was the most frustrating feeling everrrr. i hated it soo much. so i was gettin really frustrated during practice adn stuff but its ok. im over it. lol. it jstu sucks because wen ppl even feel their worst it doesnt matter because they are better than me. i am never going to do any better. but i cant give up. jon gets really mad wen im upset and mad about things lik that. so i guess i better stop thinking like that lol. ok well im done with talking for now. gonna do some reading for my seminar. so much reading...ughhh

love you all!

college

hello,
kiki said that i need to update my blog. i am sorry i kno i promised to write on here so everyone can see wats going on in my life in the lovely town of DAVIS. however, life is rough and has many obstacles that requires many sacrafices....therefore..i do not blog a lot..i dont go on facebook a lot. i dont socialize with my floor. i take naps...eat...study..swim...bike..and lift. these are the essentials of my new life wat some might call college.

today i will find some time to update you on things in life. there might be days where i will actually type a lot and some where i might say a few words..or weeks without a word. but that does not mean that i do not love you all...its jsut life is catchin up with me and there is no looking back. i wish i had more time to talk to my high school friends..and family. or anyone at all. here in davis i have one group of friends..and that is my swim team. every now and then i get to spend some time with kmae and shelley..and if im lucky andre. i see tony around campus every now and than..hopefully i will be seeing him soon once he starts doin polo with his team because they train before us. life is overwhelming..hopefully soon i can manage it all where i can start having fun again. rite now its hard to have fun because its been 2 weeks of class...lots of work to do for me..its nonstop i swear. lectures discussions swimming lifting..its all back to back. and naps are so important here..and guess wat. my floor is rediculously loud its almsot impossible to sleep soemtimes. its quite dissapointing at times.

simple update...
friends...wat friends? jk. my best friend here is prolly morgan...ive known her since i was 8. we met at a swim meet waiting for lane assignments to post and it jstu went uphill from there. its and awesome relationship. we alwyas text...and we live very close to each other. so we bike to practice all the time. and we go to lunch with our other teammate grace who is from san diego. its a really good close group. and there is bridget too..but she deserves her own blog..lmao. and then there is my swim team. there are some i can really tlak to and trust. the sophomore girls..i love them. i knew most of them before coming ehre and i completely adn utterly trust them. and my captain o' captain. julie peri. is fricken awesome. and so is samantha. its a great combo we got going on. and on some nights the whoel team comes to eat dinner at the dc with us. its great. i love settin up big tables with a large group of ppl. it makes me feel really good. the boys team doesnt really interact with us but they seem to be gettin better because we have two freshman boys who talk to us and then some of the junior boys are starting to talkt o us as well. and they eat dinner with us too. tis a lot of fun.

boyfriend....is perfect :D jon and i are doing great. the distance is really hard but we try to fix it. he does a great job with tryin to make it easier for us by driving over here to come see me every other weekend. its wonderful. he puts so much effort out for me that i feel so loved. hes really funny and he really relaly helps me out here. esp since i am soo stressed out about college and all this workload. he teaches me how to manage my time and wat to do first. i am so glad taht i was luckky enough to get him. i always had the biggest crush on him..esp wen i was younger but i never thought it could b real. and now that it is its more than i could ever know. i jstu really miss him a lot. the distance is difficult.

ok this is enough for now. i think ill try my best to do this more..its helps me vent and let it all out. and im sure if ur bored u dont mind reading it all. sorry for the lack of consistancy.

love you all!!

he told me he loves me...

ahhhhhhhh!!! and it may seem so fast but he's liked me for 4 years. and im totally fallin head over heels for him lik no joke! i just am a lil confused not too sure bout things. but at teh same time i kno i hav never felt so strong and stuff..but im kinda lik not sure and going back on myself. lik how can he feel this way about me. wat makes me so special and privelaged. and watnot. so yeah.......

todays sched was simple:
- church at 10 am
- went to valley fair
- went to the apple store and bought: laptop sleeve, laptop lock, itouch cover, apple gift card for emmy
- went to go get a few other things
- went home
- met up with jon and went to emily's house for her birthday.
- jon was soo bored and i felt sooo bad!!!! but he wanted to see me and i told him i was gonna go so my girll on her bday. so yeah.
- then em had this puzzle out and her lil cousin killed it! she was so upset and jon got kidna occupied with that. hahaha
- and thats about it. simple but relaxing and good food.

yesterday:
- went to stockton
- got my itouch
- hung out with the cousins and doggies

tomro:
- pack
- go to get my shots
- go to get alterations done
- go to zumba......

i leave in exaclty a week. as of next week at 7 pm i am officially beginning preseason training. kidna scary nwo that i realize that it is coming up so quick...

and idk with jon. i feel lik his friends are really not likin that he hangs out with me even though its mostly during the day and stuff. and they blame everything he doesnt do with them on me. so i am not sure how much longer this will last. and i hope they dont make him choose between us and stuff. that would be horrible. rite now he is intensly tlakin to carl about stuff and lik jon and i arent even talkin even though we are on vid caht so i decided to blog about it. and i really hope this doesnt put a whole through our relationship cus that would really suck. i hate how they dont approve and on most cases they would approve of most girls he would prolly go for but its becasue they all know me and i hav known them the longest. lik ive known them longer then him. they were my core group of friends wen i was growing up on the team and wat not. i even dated one of them. and the fact that they are making this that much harder for him and that he is struggling and feeling stuck and confused.

theres this huge issue i guess with him texting me all the time wen he is hanging out with his friends and stuff. i guess its jsut really annoyin to them and now its startin to piss me off that the KEEP ON CONSTANTLY BRINGING IT UP!! lik jon and i agreed that he only will text me once or twice every hour or so. lik is that enough torture..that we agreed so that it doesnt make his friends feel uncomfortalbe and have more reasons to complain about me. but no they hav the nerve to say jsut dont text her at all. ughh. idk this is makin me feel very uncomfortable and very unsure about everything i have no idea wat i should be thinking rite now. lik wen i ma with him jsut me and him its perfectly fine but wen i am with the crew i feel the tension i feel the heat that they dont want me around. which is so dumb. wat did i do to make them lik this? is it because i still swim on the team and they dont? because i was successful enough to want to do my own thing and get away from them and have a real fuckin life. and they are jsut being stupid i am starting to really hate every single one of them now. i kno they care about jon but they could care less about me. so why should i care about them other than them beign his core group of friends. wat the fuckin hell is up with that. wat assholes would be so bitchy wen they all used to be my core group of friends. im gettin soooo sooo fuckin sick of hearing aobut them complain about things about me TO ME! lik seirously. i hear it all. i dont want to deal with it anymore. im jsut gonna have to sit back and listen and laugh with jon too but im gettin so tired of them. if he wants me to hang out with them im gonna pass from now on. even tho i really cant. i jsut wont do it because i am so tired of this bullshit. they dont want me there..i dotn want to be there. they want jon. and he wont focus on anyone else but me if im there anywyas. so its better off i jstu dont get involved with them anymore. they are all beign fuckin stupid. i hate this shit. its rediculous. next time they all try to im me or watever. i just wont talk to them. i cant stand this anymore. ughhhhhhh.

anywyas. so yeah im gone. soon. really irritated. barely even wanna talk to my bf right now. he's being all chill even tho he's irritated and is tryin to tell me to stop being so irritated. and gettin all upset with me wen i say i dont wanna talk rite now cus im blogging about thigns and venting my life away about stuf that i cant tell him because they are his friends. and he doesnt understand the pain and heartbreak i feel every time they do something stupid lik that. it really jsut hurts and i kno it shouldnt and its dumb im really jsut ughhh. anyways. so yeah i dont even wanna tlak to him rite now i told him to go talk to carl cus im irritated and jsut really wanna let all my feelings out rite now. and ughh this is so not wat the blog was supposed to be about. it was supposed to be happy and cheery and talk about how im leaving soon. but now im jsut kidna relaly annoyed at all these thigns.

so yeah im glad there is a such thing as blogging so i can let this all out and all my avid listeners ( i love u mains) or readers know wats going on in my life wihtout my needing to explain everyting in person and get more irritated. u feel me? ok i guess i better go and talk to my bf now he seems to be gettin a lil upset. that wouldnt be good if we ended a good day on a bad note.

i lvoe you all. i hope school is going well!! i miss u!
ria

today was a good day

hahha i love my rando imagesss..

anyways today was a very good day i will currently list all the reasons why and then maybe possibly explain more in detail
- i swam 3000 yards with karen
- i got to spend a lot of time wiht my bf
- he told me that he's crazy for me =]
- i made a skype account
- i took khrysten's vid chat virginity LMAO


reasons why its not so great.
- my dad is being a douche bag
- my mom is being a butt
- i still cant sign up for my classes
- i had to leave and not spend more time with my bf

lml and fml.

so yeah i was talkin to my cousin adn he was asking if jon and i were gettin serious and i was lik i dont think so. i kinda dont wanna think about that cus it will make going to college a lot harder and stuff. and then lik yesterday my friend was talkin to me about how jon and i planned on gettin together lik i was expecting adn hoping for it. whcih is totally polar opposite because he didnt even wanan tell me that he liked me. i mean i dont mind it but stil. but he siad somethin aobut us falling for each other. and im not sure wat that means but ive been thinin about it and stuff. and i jstu dont kno. lik he makes my heart beat faster than ive ever known. and i get flustered wen he kisses me.a nd i drive home speechless and motionless only thinking about him. and i guess he is kdina the same way. idk wat that means. i have always been his friend adn we've cared about each other that same way. and lik this is a relationship that only improves by our even now closeness. and its a friendship that will last but i dont kno if its more. if its growing so fast i cant even keep up. ah my head is spinning!!!! omg i dont kno wat to do! eeeek! ok i need to stop. i will talk more later. im going to stockton for a family thing tormo that should be good cus i get to see my cousins and kidna get away and watnot. lvoe you all. i hope things are going well!

ahh im leaving soon! i needa start packing. will do starting monday when he starts school

damn

omg so today i got an email from my women's studies teacher and it said that my class got cancelled! its my only class that gave grades and fulfilled GE credit ughhhh. so i hav been freaking out and i thought i was all set and everything i figured out my sched and i wont hav classes on thrus but then i tried registering today and i guess my pass 2 isnt till sept 3rd. so i hav to wait till then ughh. i hope no one takes those courses or else im going to DIE that means i am ineligible for school. how much would that suck. i hope id ont hav stuff lik that to worry about rite before i leave for davis. ughh now i have an even worse headache.

and i was talkin to my friend jaycob about doing hookah and stuff since khrysten adn ro were talkin to me about it and stuff. but i dont kno and i kidna asked jon about and it he said that its smoking basically and he doesnt do that. and yeah idk i prolly wont do it but im kidna confused cus he does weed and drinks a lot but he refuses to smoke..i relaly dont get any of this. but i just guess watever. i will jsut stick to dancing and sometimes drinking. hahahah. ughh.

so yeah ok well today i didnt go to polo today cus jon was hurting from doing muhy tai or watever yesterday so he was urting too much from going so i went to his house this mornign adn got so lazy that i jsut dindt go either hahaha but i slept for lik 12 horus it was redic. i got hella tired and took a nap and never woke up lmao. ok well im gettin tired and hurting a little. can u believe this my hair is growing alreayd!! im gonna hav to cut it sometimes soon.

ok time to go.

back achess....

currently just smashed yet another jamba juice...original aloha pineapple, thick with energy to be specific. lol

agenda for TOOO DAEEEE:
- woke up at 850 and wanted to shoot myself in the head lol
- left the house around 920
- got gas because i literally was running on NOTHING in my car
- drove to ohlone and ran into an old friend, karen, who used to swim on our swim team and ironically just graduated from UCD!!
- we got in and swam and then EDDIEEEE showed up who i guess came back from hawaii last night. but i was really excited to see him i really did miss that fool surprisingly
- we picked a set each person and then we just swam them all lol
- ashley kendell was there throwing around the ball and karen was talking to her. i eventually joined her and after that was history. i was having wayy tooo much fun throwing around the polo ball
- i miss playin and throwing and have so much potential and skill. i feel so cheated from that stupid car accident it makes me so upset
- so after playing with only swimmers for a while i started contemplatin on playing with the big boys aka college boys aka jon's friends. hahaha awkwarddd to the max
- so yeah playing and stuff was fun but it kinda made my back really hurt so now its aching =/ maybe i shouldnt play tomro...
- and then i went to the animal shelter with jon and OH MY GOD those doggies and kitties were SOOO CYUUTEEEEEEEEEEEE i wanted to take them all home with meeeee!!!
- so yeah i have this huge urge to go adopt some dogs now
bahhh ok no more bloggin im vid chattin with em. ttyl