spring spirit week

i have a 3.66!!! omg thank goodness i hope thats wat my six week grading period sayss. cus that would b AMAZINGG!!

so today was career day. i was a pizza my heart delivery girl, pizza-ria (haha yay parents), alex blefari (cus she works pmh mv), pizza. i love how my parents bought me that awesome hat. it was super cool.

i want to take a shower right now so my mommy can curl my hair but i want to watch the performances on american idol. so thats killing me rite now. ughh. bahh humbug.

so yeah i am really excited that my grades are good but the poor bf is not doing that well in school. he got a 3.9 last semester but now he is failing. thats not good. i think its the frat but he denies it. stupid boys. supposedly he says he is focusing on school but if he really is trying then he would not be gettin all these c's. thats jsut what i am thinking. i am watching american idol. but i want to shower!!

there is so much that i want to talk about but i am so unfocused. i need to write my scholarship essay. i need to rewrite things. and ms tas keeps asking me so i just need to get it done. like the rest of my other work. oh and i got a billion emails today and tis rediculous. because i didnt get a 680 on teh writing section on the SAT i have to take this dumb writing test thats so stupid nd they jsut give me this date and time. assuming that i am free what if i wasnt there. they are so fucking gay. and i have to pay. i mean i did enough fucking testing its so dumb. i hate it all. fuck my fucking life.


i want to quit high school swimming. thats the jist of all my problems right now. im going in and out of it. the more that i think about it the more i think about how miserable i am. why should i wait this out. there is no point cus i dont have fun and its a waste of time and the rest of my high school career. swimming doestn define me anymore. i jsut know a lot of ppl who swim. its gonna be hella fun in college i hope. but if i could really get wat i want is to jsut start a new fresh slate. i want to stop swimming for a while. i wanna work out in the gym, on land, in the pool on my own until after graduation adn my lil small senior trip if i have one. and when things are all set and work starts i am gonna start working my ass off again. and jsut start preparing for trying out. since i have to walk on and stuff. i jsut need to b apart of soemthing my freshman year. adn esp something that will get me free stuff and help me do early registration. blah blah blah. i hate how one little thing has so many consequences and some ppl dont want me doing one thing. so they would rather i suffer and cry. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE. i hate it when ppl dont understand what i am feeling. ppl are jsut lik "oh its not a big deal. id ont understand y its worrying you so much" its lik wtf. they need to jsut leave me alone cus if i cant handle this anymore. it drives me insane. i cry. i dont care anymore!!!!!!!!!!i dont wanna have to deal with thisssss. its driving me insane. cant you tell? fuck my fuckin life.

i dont feel lik ranting. or talking. so peace. hikatkhryandandrew!! i love you guys