confused child

so basically i am a tad bit confused on everything. i am tryin to change my email to this account and it totally froze everything i had on here. well anyways i hav my fred debate tomro and i havnt typed out any of my notes yet. part of me is hoping that we dont get to my prompt tomro so i can get soem extra time to work on it. if yenno what i mean. well yeah. i basically am not prepared and i dont have the self motivation to do any of this.

im 18! well i was as of last week. my bday went well. marques and i went to go watch confessions of a shopaholic. so funny. its a really good movie. and then we went to church and went out to shushi with my fambam. that was good.

my party was crazy. first the lights kept going out right before the party and then a minute before 6 they turned back on and stayed on. that was crazy i tried so hard to stay calm. a bunch of ppl couldtn come cus they were sick or their paretns wouldnt let them outta tha hosue. that kinda made me mad and upset and sad. i mean shit i coulda had a way bigger turn out and stuff. but iwas still fun and i had a good time with the poeple who game. i didnt hav an amazing time but i did hav fun and it was memorable. it was lik even unrealistic at times. lik i sat back and said to myself "this cant really be happening right now"

well anyways. tomro is ash wednesday and we hav liturgy dress. and our debate so i am gonna be dressed up for that.

i had my first day of swimming today. as of 3 weeks i hav not swam because of sickeness nd retreat and what not. so yeah it was my first day back and my first day of high school practice. that was a bit interesting. nothing too amazing and it wasnt too horrible either. it was a mediocre practice. i am going to wait and see hwo the rest of the week unfolds.

i hav elaine's dance practice today. i am not going to lie the vids that we hav of us dancing is jsut horrible and makes me wanna cry. cus its gonna jsut look so bad wen we do the whole thing. ughh oh well. i want to sleep but i need to type out this stuff. for my gropu. well kdian. no one else is doing anything. so i am trusting in god that we can figure this thing out.

sorry that i dont hav anything interesting to talk about. and i am probably the only one who checks my profile. so its lik i talk to myself. but i am not informed lik other bloggers. who talk about different subjects and wat not. i mean what else can i say. i am not brilliant and dont hav strong opinions about things that can jsut be easily written on a blog. maybe i can try one day. itll probably be about high school swimming and how much we lost this year. and hwo much i feel cheated about everything. but thats another time. i want to sleep and i should get this debate stuff done now so i dont hav to do it later. peace!

victoria ann