hello world

well hello there world it has been a bit of a long time since i have been here. seems to me that it seems like my life would be drama infested and very eventful. i guess i can think of a thing or two to talk bout. you kno me i will rant about pretty much anything if you'll let me. =] its a gift i must say. so the last time i checked i wrote showed my letter that i wrote to OD. btw shout out to bryant! who throws yogurt covered raisins like a psycho path! adam will win! bahahha. so anyways. on whatever day that was..prolly tuesday. yes tuesday the day before kyle and michelle's bday. we had collab and kimmy tells me that miss hill was talking hella shit about me during bball practice. oh big suprise! whoop dee doo bitch! and then my uneventful day turned worse wen i was greated with a beautiful yellow pass sending me to the athletic office during 2nd period. we werent doing anything particularly special so i was glad to leav but i knew for a fact hta tit was probably about swimming. duh. so pilawski talk to me blah blah blah. listens to me say all these things that the coaches and other teachers have done to me ...lik hello! call the administration! harrassment perhaps? no cus pilawski who i used to think was such a cool guy is such a lil bitch. he wouldnt do anything about it but just try to pull the "well if u stayed on the team this long than why dont u jsut wait another week cus they need you" card. yeah the fuck right. i mean if i pushed and forced myself to keep doing this bs for how many months wat makes u think that i would want to do it on my last real week of school. i am so glad i made the decisions i did. forget it. and forget them. and fuck my parents! seriously they back me this whole time they even push me and stuff. and guess wat they yell at me ten times more about nothing. and aobut not goin to a walk on meet today saying that i promised to go. why the fuck would i go the day after prom? and most esp if i didnt go to ccs adn i wasnt training the week before. i am so tired of swimming. so done with it. i have passion but its not in the action of doing teh sport. its for the ppl that i do it with. i have passion for being a leader. i think ppl mix that up sometimes and expect somehting out of me that i dont want to do. i mean i am allowed to finally be selfish.i am going to college. this is when i become independetn and wen i grow by myself. i most def will not call my parents if they keep getitn on myi fucking nerves and ass about everything. it will all be exclusively by emial. cus thats all i do. i dont talk on the phone either. ok so after teh talk with pilawski i was in such a bad mood. i was crying everywhere. tryin to calm down and went back to class. i was so fumed and angry that the coaches had to send pilawski to do their dirty work. jsut email me back you dont need to talk to me face to face. well after school i went for a run with kp. that felt really good to get a good run and figure things out. just letting everythign go. yenno.

wednesday was kyle and michelles bday. if the day could have been any more perfect yet stressful. so it was my last day of tests and stuff. ex sci and math. yee yee. i was planning on studying during first period but i ended up havin to do stuff for the lil bday party. so i made the beautiful pink ice cream cake. so basically ms haggs put it away for me. and then at lunch i was pulled out of class early. and then i sent out passes to everyoen sayin that it was for a fundraising thing. it worked perfectly!! hess was there. we partied it up lik no other. and then kyle and chels were at confirmation. and so then carlie tim liz and i went to go kidnap him. lik really kidnap him with a blindfold and everything thru the whole quad. it was perfect!! so funny too he was freaking out. the suprise for him went well too. omg it just was so perfect. i hope that he really appreciated it because i planned the whole thing! yee yee. i kno hess loved it.

prom was last night. it was eh. short. ok i guess. im watchin a movie now. im too distracted.
peace