oopsies

i havent called the pacific coach back yet. he has tried to call me two days in a row and i have been to the point where i jsut dont feel like calling people unless they call me and i can answer when i catch it. i dont feel lik calling people back. is that bad? i jsut sent an email to rick who is one of the coaches for davis. yuppp. basically. i should be brainstorming for my essay tomro but i dont feel like doing it. and i dont think i really need to do anything for class tomro. basicalllyyyy. haha.

so tomro is dress rehearsal and swim meet. thats gonna be hard to go back and forth. but i think its manageable as long as both parties are easy to work with. i need to be at both places but they both need to be reasonalbe at the same time. i hope i can get down radio. its there but its not at the same time. because wen we do it to full speed it goes so fast and i dont kno if i can get it down. but thats ok. cus we have rehearsal tomro all day. everywhere we can. and i have time to keep practicing all of friday. so yeah i think i can get it down. i need to relax and not get nervous. and i need to not care about how i look. cus then i am soo selfconscious.

basically. ummm. i found weep not child online. and i can search for words so hopefully i can find my quotes taht i need. i think if i get a child i am prolly gonna fricken blog during class when i get the laptops hahahahah. i need to write an essay during class but i really hope he isnt seirously thinking that we can write our final essay in 2 days. i mean we have other things going on in our lives.

so for tomro/friday. i need to figure out what i am going to wear. they want me to put on the chinese dress but i cant mess it up. lik seriously i am going to be runnign in and out of the pool. that wont be fun at all. ill smell like chlorine and i dont wanna mess up the clothes taht i will be wearing the next night.

speaking of swimming. so we have our big YAMAMOTO INVITE this saturday. first of all they DONT HAVE THE SHIRTS!! that we give out to all the teams that score in individual and in relays. its lik the version of ribbons and awards for everyone. and everone wears it. esp the one from last year because its bright yellow. i love those shirts i have them from 2 years before i even started going to SF. so i guess now we dont have any this year. which is hella gay. they are trying to make up this huge excuse that ppl didnt kno. well fuckin get a grip your supposed to be our coaches dont try and make some lame excuses. thats really dumb. suck some nuts honestly. nd trollope was definately there last year even if he was the guys coach i dont care thats dumb. no one is going to go to their meet next year. and i really hope they dont.

and then there is the whole thinga bout line up. i dont even think i can tlk about it anymore. natalie asks me for her help and then i try to give her my advice. then she pulls a whol 360 on me and wont even listen to what i have to say. i try and try but its lik no one gives a fuck about what the educated person has to say. lik fuck i have spent how many years of my life in swimming? like whouldnt you trust me to kno wat the hell im talking about. i plan on coaching as a side job. i love to coach. i know about strategy for swim meets and how thtings should be set up. lik seirously. wtfh. and then she goes off and goes THIS ISNT EVEN MY JOB blah blah blah. and im lik ill take care of it. she totally ignores me and goes IM GOING TO GIVE THIS BACK TO THEM AND TELL THEM THAT ITS BAD TIMING. and i want to scream ill fuckin do it you little baby!! shiiit. she isnt even swimming at the meet anywya.s homo. umm yeah i jsut cant talk about this anymore. i jsut emailed my head coach. kinda jsut stating my opinion. hahah yeah. ok im donski. im sleepy

i dont feel lik drafting my essay. all i need was that my english grade goes up. i need to borrow a book tomro. hahahah.

peace yall!!!

i jsut finished thank you cards that i need to pass out tormo at skool.