best friends

kristine, danielle, marcus, sean, aimee, everyone else in the whole damn world. wat is the definition of a best friend? who do you consider to be the person you trust with your life. isnt a best friend supposed to be someone who listens and understands. knows you the best. hears you out. tells u wen ur being retarded but holds secrets that keep you safe. is your best friend someone who will never leave your side or hurt you. how can one person loose so many ppl that were so close to them? i only have one best friend now. i used to hav three. and that best friend is supposed to be my boyfriend. and i dont even kno if he can even do both roles sometimes. he wont even listen to me on the phone wen i talk about how perfect next year will b. i jsut dont kno anymore. this point in my life is so full of questions rite now. i hope that if anything i will find true frineds somewhere soon in my life. college will bring me friends hopefuly i can get along with them. adam and morgan are two ppl who i hope i see as maybe being something close enough. i love those kiddies and i kno swimming with them is going to be so much fun. ugh. my head hurts. i went to andre's grad brunch today. that was a lot of fun. the boys played king's cup and melnick lost. hahah funny. andre's daddy is really nice. they offered for me to come over all the time which i hope to take advantage of. i want to come over all the time. and sleep over and wat not. easy to go to morning practice after. ok i wanna sleep ill jsut get this over with later another time wen im awake. goodnight