summer

credit to andrew nguyen for this photo. good work. so yeah i got cut off yesterday from all my talkingness because a someoneee totally messed it up. btw watchin so you think you can dance is on. soo goood!!! i jsut dont kno wat the hell is mia micheals problem with brandon. i think thats his name. but yeah she was jsut chewing him uppp and lil c too. that made me soo soo super mad. and that the alex guy. asian. isnt making it cus his ballet studio wouldnt stop his contract for a lil bit. he was cryingggg. i started crying too because it was soo sad. all he wanted was to express himself in the different types of dance. ughh soo sad.


so hmm. i am leaving soon on thursday. no phone for me til lik the 19th i believe. but ill b coming home really late and wat not. so that is bah. i hope that it is a lot of fun. most of the time i jsut dont enjoy family vacations because i am with my parents (whom i dont get along with) and my sister (who is too young to hav fun with). bah. im 18 and the drinking age in mexico means that i am legally allowed to drink. i mean why not. i hope my parents let. mine arent lik those other parents that let their kids go wild on vacations yenno. but my dad says that i am going ZIP LINING! ahh. i am sooo excited to do that. i have always dreamed of diong it. i can see myself flipping a fuckin bitch! omg i would go psycho! hahah and then he is gonna let me go umm idk wat they are called. on those water jets..i think. i hav been waiting to do that too. i needa go buy more bikinis cus i realized im gonna wanna change it up and stuff cus imma b in my suit hella! haha. its summer time i dont wear clothes i wear swim suits. i hope we do some other fun thigns. i think that my parents are tryin to let me enjoy my last vaca cus i doubt ill b going with them from now on. i mean colelge and stuff. im gonna wanna go out with my friends and stuff. and then i am gonna get an internship next eyar. and ill still b in school wen they go on vaca this time next year.


boys boys. omg boys. idk wat to do with them. esp my boyfriend. that one. idk wat is going on with us. it is so difficult. wat do u do wen i love someone soo much and then wen u are together he doesnt talk to you. you try to talk and he doesnt respond. you try to make it fun and he jsut is all tired about everything. i am so annoyed and i am borderline now. i jsut cant do it anymroe. but wen i try to end it..it hurts me. my heart breaks thinking of my life without him. wat are u supposed to do about that? and then i am just starting to see lik wat life is lik to be free and single. gah. and then wen he was gone on his fraternity thing i went out and tried to enjoy my week without him there. and i had a lot of fun. i had the best week of my life. lik the tiem to be able to spend with my friends was so great and precious. its the most i hav ever spent with friends outside of my swim team during summer ever! and lik i kno i wont see him this summer. cus he has work and i hav work and swimming. and hopefully he starts training. and he has so many personal issues that i dont even kno wat to do. he wont talk to me about it. and then half the time i feel guilty because i dont kno wat to say. gha my life. someone give me answers. i really do need help.


facebook tells me that i should be dating white. hahaha. thats kidna funny. and ironic in some ways.

bah i never talked about my hollister story. well i guess i can tell that now or later? hmm...wat should i do? maybe ill do it another time. or in a couple minutes. jomar has it on video. hes making a documentary for summer. ok ill post my story on a seperate thing later. love you all