wat a day

well today has been an interesting day. lots of thinking and contemplating and my head hurts a lot. its been hurting lik excrutiating. i dont kno if it has to do with the fact htat i got a larger dose allergy shots or if its from being on the computer for so damn fricken long every day and every second. hahah. doing facebook quizzes wehn no one else is online. so i leave in a matter of hours. no cell phone =/ thats going to be hard. no internet. but i think itll be nice as well. cus i need to get away and jsut chillax on my own. go visit my alternate reality called vacation where im single with no worries. going to have a great time. too bad im not actually single. ahhahahahaahha. but things with the bf arent bad for once i must say. i saw him yesterday we watched wanted on his laptop and for the most part its good. he promised to go to loopkicks training when i am gone. he better i have my cousin to check up on him. lol. i wnat him to train.

so a couple of things happened today. first of all i woke up at 415 and i couldnt remember why i was waking up that damn early. so i got up and i was supposed to go to breakfast with chelsea but she didnt show up. ironically i did that to her last week so that is kidna funny. but i was so fricken exhausted i was going to pass out soo bad wen i was lifting. then i finished took a shower. ate at panera. and then slept at kp's till lik 1130. haha went to chipotle target adn borders. then went to get recertified for cpr at happy fish. jon and nick were there. i miss them so much. i am so sad that we arent working at teh same sites this year. jon and i used to eat lunch together everyday during the summer and bonded lik no other. =[ damn it for my coach being my employer and making sure that all the swimmers work at ohlone so we hav no choice but to go to evening practice. i really dont wanna do that. ill already be swimming in teh mornign and working all afternoon. i guess ill be hanign at andre's house (hopefully) and kp's a lot this summer. itll be good. and we will b reading. making a book club. =] hhahahaha funny stuff.

omg fricken this one person that i dont want to say the name of this persnnnn. but he just really likes to piss me off and drive me crazy. he facebook chats me saying that he is single and then i asked what happened and then he goes ill explain later. that is sooooooo lameeee because it is so annoying. he has doen this before. he wont even talk to me. and he worte this thing for me wen we were on our trip saying that we should always tay friends blah blah. i tried. i really did. but it makes me mad wen there are more lying peices of shits in teh world. more fuckin douche bags everywhere. that is so dumb. who does he think i am. that i am gonna chase after him. i hate him more than anything rite now. lik wen i see a picture of him i cringe ughhh. it makes me sooo mad. i didnt think i would hav such harsh feelings and maybe its a lil too mean. but he played me lik no other. how do u play someone wehn its only a friendship? wat asshole does that? i guess he does. watever. i dont even kno.

but then there is that other child. i dont kno how to feel about it all. its lik i dont want to overpush talkin to him. and lik i feel lik im a fuckin annoying peice of shit. hahahah. wow who knew i could feel so small by another person. i ahvnt felt lik that in such a long time. but i jsut dont kno anymore. its soo werid. i try to stay away from texting allt het ime. but i just texted him today and we talked about how someone needs to text more. or something idk. it got awkward because he kidna made it awkward about the bf. idk. and after that i tried to tell myself ot back off. cus its soo weirdddd. i jstu dnt knoooooo. ughhhh. oh well. i am jsut gonna let it all sit back wen i go on vaca and see wat happens.

so yeah. to my loves. i hpe you all enjoy ur time wen i am away. i hope u dont miss me too much and u dont love life too much wihtout me.

I LOVE YOUUUUU